wHo LaUgH oFtEn n LoVeD mUcH...

2011-02-16T17:06:00.002+08:00

Oh God! It's been AGES since i wrote something here!

haha. this blog gonna die off. or maybe it died already. haha.

but the memories live on and will never die.

I still LOVE you blog! :)

Thanks for being there for me! Thank you!

2010-06-12T00:04:00.001+08:00

You know, sometimes you are just tired of being urself all the time. We are not fixed people with always the same kind of mood and feelings all the time. Sometimes, we changed. But I wonder why some people just can't see the difference when you changed. Sigh.

I ain't a perfect person.

2010-04-13T22:30:00.001+08:00

Am I up to it?

.....

Is this the right path I'm taking?

.....

Oh God...

Why? Why? Am I that incapable? Am I that stupid?

2010-04-06T23:12:00.001+08:00

Ahhhh... Busy day everyday...

I want to have a break.

2010-04-03T20:52:00.001+08:00

I want to change. Help.

2010-03-27T20:30:00.003+08:00

Such a complicated world

2010-03-27T20:30:00.001+08:00

Such a complicated world

2010-03-04T23:10:00.003+08:00

A Real BIG day tml.

It's either I cry or I jump with joy.

Or perhaps feel nothing.

Oh God, Please show Your miracle on me.

2010-01-30T23:07:00.004+08:00

ARRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I know!!! Everything is just so stupid!

IT's ALL MY FAULT! I KNOW.

TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO WILL YOU?

God. I really really really don't know what i should do now...
please help me, I beg You.

2S12'10

2010-01-14T19:45:00.003+08:00

Hey guys. I'm back.

I'm in 2S12 now. new year, new class, new friends, new teachers and new life.

I'm really scared of going to JC2. I'm not sure what I should do. but I just know that the time is simply too short and I don't think I'm prepared enough for the coming A level.

I'm left with less than 10 months to prepare myself. TEN MONTHS! for goodness sake.

Well, I just hope that I'll get used to this hectic life of JC2 and I just hope that I could also enjoy myself while working hard and smart to prepare myself.

So anw, lets talk bout my current classmates from the 2S12'10.

I think they are alright but sometimes I just felt that they are too quiet. haha. I mean compared to my previous class 1s14. The best and craziest class I've ever been. It's really an honor to be there. cool classmates and all. but s12 is not so bad either. I think we just need more time before everyone can bond together.

So yeap, I've got new physics teacher right now. kinda sad that Mr Ng is not teaching us anymore. but nvm. My this year CT and physics teacher is Mr Nordin! A real funny teacher. haha. The class, including me, love him lots! He's simply too funny and he makes every lesson very interesting and he's able to attract our attentions. today was my first lesson with him and I just couldn't stop laughing throughout the whole lesson. HAHAHHA! Can't wait for tomorrow's lesson. He's real good. lol.

Oh anw, I'm supposed to be the GP rep actually but in the end, change to the treasurer. haha. Zhen Jie is now the GP rep. lol.

so far, i havent really got the chance to talk and bond with the other students from other class yet. but hope all of us can be ONE 2S12 soon. Just like 1S14! ^^

Oh my, I really miss 1s14 lots. I wanna have a reunion. just can't wait to meet up with them. well, I already promise sylvester that we gonna have a 1s14 chalet after A level. haha. hopefully we could have 2s12 chalet as well. (:

alright then, I've gtg now. Got lots of things to do now. see ya and God bless you!

By the way,

CONGRATULATION TO BEATRICE for your O Level results! :D

hope you can get in to the course you desire. (:

***I LOVE SRJC!!!***

It's not so easy to leave your home

2009-12-29T00:34:00.004+08:00

I'm left with one more week to go in indo...

what can i say?

Well, I'm sad of course. The feeling is always the same. I've never wanted to go back again. But I've no other choice, do I? I have to finish what I have started.

I'm scared of going back. I don't think I'm ready for anything yet.

I just feel like staying here and help my dad in his company and with my mom too of course.

It's kinda stressful working and i can see that through my parents' everyday lifestyle. they are working very very hard to manage the company and sometimes it hurts me to see them working so hard. How I wish I could do something to help them. but I'm extremely proud of them. I really am. I love them a lot. they are really my everything. without them, I'll not be here today. Thanks dad! Thanks mom!

I still don't know how to show my greatest gratitude to them yet except to make sure that I make them proud. But I promise to myself that I'm gonna do something for them in the future when I'm more capable. I promise that.

So yeah, i have to leave them again soon. The sadness of leaving. Some of you may not know how it feels but trust me, the feeling is more than you can imagine.

I'm not ready for next year. I'm not ready for A level. Everything just went too fast.

I'm not sure what I shoud do now.

Anw, I've design a new thick hard cover book for myself. Asked my dad to help me. Well, it's gonna be something like my diary cos I just realize that at times, its really impossible to write all my thoughts here.

*The Lost Symbol is finally found

2009-12-25T02:27:00.002+08:00

First of all,

Merry Christmas to all!

ah, i guess I'll write my thoughts on other day...

Good nite everyone!

Praise to God, King of all Kings!

2009-12-21T13:17:00.001+08:00

Time is running out...

2009-12-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

Why do I feel so weird?

Why?

I simply don't understand.

I feel... I don't know.

I don't know how to describe it. Sigh.

Why should I do?

Arrrggghhhh..

2009-12-17T18:32:00.003+08:00

ehh...

I dunno how to say it.

okay, I had a really weird dream last night. hmm not last nite actually, it was this morning.

in that dream, it involved quite a number of people. my teachers were there too. one teacher was greatly involved in my dream and i could still remember what happened very clearly. it looked so real!

omg.

alright. will talk some other time.

2009-12-07T16:44:00.000+08:00

Today is Mr Leow's birthday!!! :D

Happy birthday Mr Leow!!! :) He's my secondary school physics teacher and he's a real nice teacher too! miss talking to him lots. it's been sometimes since we last met each other. ahh, i wonder how is he doing now. Think he's doing good. haha.

so yup, my brother flew off to spore already and my sisters are on their way to fetch him at changi.

Oh OH Oh OHHH!! anw!!! have i told you that I'm getting the guitar? haha.

YUP! my parents actually was about to get me the new yamaha guitar yesterday but unfortunately, there's no stock. but its alright, i've already decided to get the classical one and I'm going to get the guitar once the new stock arrives. hahaha. sooooooooo happy!!!

Wooohooooooooooo!!! XD

cool isn't it?

I was just talking to the person in the shop and i was kinda confused at first. classical or acoustic? then i asked my parents and they just said, up to me, which one i want. so decided to get the classical one. haha. so gonna try learning that soon.

ah for now, i shall end this post first. gonna update soon! haha.

Lots of free time to blog huh. lol.

Oh anw, BON VOYAGE to Li ying who's leaving to ShangHai tomorrow! (:

2009-12-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

Problem you faced if you work in a restaurant and don't know how to speak english.

Waiter: Mau makan apa sir, m'am?
Tourist: Hmm.. I'm not sure.. what do you have here?
Waiter: Kepiting.. kepiting.. oh apa sir sama m'am ke sana saja, go there there.. pilih sayur..
Tourist: Huh?

Waiter: there, there, CRAB.. (pointing to the aquarium full of crabs)
Tourist: ok ok sure. WE'll order that.
Waiter: Tunggu sir, wait wait. Ladies or gentlemen? crab.. mau nya ladies ato gentlemen???
Tourist: WHAT???????

HHAHAHAHAHHA!!! OMG!!! XD

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Anw, my dad was laughing at that joke like some crazy man! hahaha.
Oh and my brother's flight was cancelled. he was not allowed to take the flight cos he was under 14 years old. lol. He was on the plane already and someone got there and ask him to come down and we came back all the way back to fetch him back. hahaha.

2009-12-04T15:31:00.002+08:00

Okay!

I'm back to my dad's office again!

LOL. cos my brother stopped doing his work. --''

Lazy boy. Anw, he's going back to spore tomorrow to take tests again and he's not studying properly. Just hope that he'll be able to get a school when the results release on the 22nd of december.

so yeah, don't think I'll have mood to do my homework. For goodness sake, it feels like a total end of year holiday for me. arrrggghhhh... >.<

Oh btw, I'm going to 2S12 next year! I'm so so so so so have no idea what to say. i'm not sure whether I'm supposed to be excited, happy, scared or I dunno. How? my two best friends are in the other class. true that there are still some cool 1s14 cool mates who'll be in the same class as me. and another sad thing, Mr Ng not gonna be my CT next year. sigh. I don't think I've thanked him enough for teaching me and guiding me all these time.

Class video was not shown fully too cos of sh0rt of time.

hmm.. time flies real fast.. TOO fast that I hardly can catch up.

ahhhhh.... such a life.

I'm still waiting.

2009-12-04T14:27:00.003+08:00

Ah I'm in my dad's office now.

Going to the other room to teach my bother bout his compo soon.

Anw I'm still halfway towards the end of lost symbol.

Hmm so last nite didn't do anything much but was just exploring my brother's new computer. And my dad gave me a hard disk, 250GB! Hahahaha. Cool isn't it? Lol.

Still got few more stuff to get though. Haha.

Kk talk to you guys later! :D

2009-12-03T16:48:00.003+08:00

I'm already at the airport now. Waiting to board the plane.

Ahh that airport security Guard is really very irritating. I know I brought something more than 150ml but hold on! How could you throw my stuff just like that?! Wad is this?!! I could still go out and gave my sis back the stuff rite? Besides, that thing is sealed and branded. You are like throwing my money on the bin! This is so crap and I really hate the system. I'll make sure you get it from my sis. Just wait.

Lousy guard.

Oh maybe you want it rite and that's why you purposely throw that thing in the dustbin.

Crap.

2009-12-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

I'm going back tomorrow and I've not packed anything yet.....

hahahha. well, thanks ci lian! hahaha. I know you are my best darling. you gonna pack for me rite? :P

*Silence means approval*

LOL!!! hahahhaa.

ya ya ya wait for me... I'm gonna start packing soon.. we still have lots and lots and lots and lots and lots lots lots of time. you see... we still have 15 more hours to go. long isn't it?

okay okay okay okay!! I'm COMING!!!!

2009-11-29T22:57:00.004+08:00

OMG!!! I miss chatting with people using MSN!

It's been ages since I used MSN for online chatting! hahaha!

and omg Jun Guang and me are going to get it from the class! think they gonna kill us after wednesday! but thank God I'm fleeing on thursday afternoon! hahahhaha!! XD

But we are doing something really really really cool!

Its beyond cool actually. It's SUPERB & BRILLIANT!!!!

hahaha!

Well, that's all for now. Have to come early to school tomorrow to do some cool practice!

I promise after wednesday, I'll put everything in my blog! hahaha!

Nitez everyone!!! X)

2009-11-28T22:09:00.001+08:00

Music does brighten up your life. I'm glad to say that music did change my life and I thank my parents for introducing it to me.

And...

True as it can be,

piano is the most beautiful instrument in the whole universe.

2009-11-28T18:37:00.005+08:00

Oh man... I'm so not in the mood to do anything now. Especially to study. Arrghhh... How am I supposed to study now if i'm just 4 days away from going back home? Oh anw Im not gonna bring back my guitar. My second sis has promised me that she going to buy a new guitar for me as my christmas present! Hahaha. I'm so happy!!!!! XD hahaha. It's so great! So I'm gonna get one soon! Haha. But I'm still confused. Should I get the classical guitar or the acoustic guitar? Hmmm.. Which one? I already have an acoustic one though. I think I'm going to ask someone expert about this one. Haha.

Oh anw, can't wait for monday to come! Hahaha.

Feel so excited! Haha.

Well, see ya then! :D

2009-11-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ohhhh I just simply love all my friends!!!

Nelson, liying, Melissa and Jun Guang are really the greatest bunch of people you can ever met. I think they are really cool. Haha. :D

And of course, we did something really awesome today and I just can't wait for Monday and Wednesday. Haha. Something cool is awaiting.....! Haha.

Anw, the lost symbol is a real nice book. It's just so exciting and although I'm still halfway to the end of the book, I already fall in love with this story. I think it's really nice. And honestly, I've never read so much before, especially a novel like this. Haha.

So ya, shall talk to you again some other time! See ya and God bless you! :D

2009-11-24T12:29:00.003+08:00

Back home early today. There's only 1 lesson in the morning because Mr Ng changed the lesson.

So yeah, I'm watching tv now and Hi-5 is really very sucky now. They changed the people and the songs they sing are getting worse. My goodness. Anw today is my sis exam and wish her all the best for that! :D

anw last night was carzy. Haha. I was trying to use my I touch for skype. Well I managed to use it and talk to Nelson using it. It was so cool. Hahaha. But it's kinda hard as I wasn't using proper mic. Gonna try again tml using Nelson's headset. Lol. My I touch cool huh. Lol.

OMG I'm still watching Hi-5 and it's really --"

man.. This is crazy..

2009-11-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

Today,

went to view house at simei green again and thank God the place was quite not bad and everything was perfect. Well, except the price actually. The price is kinda high. But we've told our parents and hopefully we can still consider it.

Anw went to orchard with Nelson today to accompany him to get a watch. Walking around at orchard like some lost cows in the city. Lol. We were roaming around, not knowing where to go. Haha. But the talking while wondering around was fun. It's real fun an enjoyable to talk to people, to change opinions, view of things and the different perceptions. I like that. Haha.

Guess that's why I love my JC friends a lot. Cos they are really very mature too and somehow, they share the same views of things as me. Ah well, to be a JC student is cool. To be an SRJCian is even cooler. And to be part of 1s14 is the coolest thing you can ever wish for your JC life. Trust me.

Mr Ng's birthday celebration! :)

2009-11-20T19:11:00.007+08:00

Mr Ng's Birthday Celebration! :)

Yo! I just woke up from my sleep. Haha. I went home today about 4 and read the lost symbol for a while and fell asleep till just now. Crazy isn't it. Haha. So yea, let me tell you what happened today.

We're actually celebrating Mr Ng's birthday today. It's supposed to be tomorrow though. Haha. So since op we already started planning and this week we did the black book that we gave to him as the birthday present. Monday, we went to order cake at kovan and bought the necessary things for the book. Started doing since wednesday till yesterday and the book turned out up be very nice till we want to keep it. Hahaha. We really really really hope Mr Ng will like it.

Well he wasn't very surprise though cos somehow he already knew that we gonna celebrate it for him. But from the smile on his face, I could see that he appreaciate this a lot. Thanks s14 for working together. :)

Mr Ng was really happy for this and I'm very HAPPY too! I'm so happy that he likes what we did for him. I'm really glad for that. Oh ya, I was so jealous when he took his guitar and sing. Actually, our previous plan was to be outside LT then I'm going to play the piano for him. But we found out that Mr Ng has to rush somewhere and that's why we have to do everything fast and I've got no chance to play it for him. Ah well.

So anw, after all that he sang 2 songs for us and yup that's how we ended the celebration. When Mr Ng was singing, then the class gathering around him, that was really the best part. I almost want to tear because I know that this will somehow be the last time we as a class with Mr Ng could gather together. Oh God, I just don't want to leave.

We also took a group picture at the end of the celebration and yup, it was a real nice one because everyone was smiling and you could see the smile and happiness on everyone's faces. Another successful event and everything went smoothly and it was GREAT!

Btw, I also gave Mr Ng a bar of chocolate and i was real happy to see him smile when I gave him that. Until now I'm still smiling remembering what happened today.

*Thanks Mr Ng for being such a great teacher and friend to me. Thanks for being such a nice, loving, caring and passionate teacher! And thanks for being part of 1s14 family and most importantly for touching our lives and made a difference in each of us. Thank you soooooooo much and we love you!*

Thank You Lord for all you've given to me and for all the things that I cannot see.

Thank You Lord! Thank you so much for blessing all of us. Thank You and praise You God!

Forever 1S14! (:

2009-11-20T16:01:00.002+08:00

I'm so super duper uber HAPPY today!!!!!! XD

Great and awesome!

1s14 rocks! Thanks Mr Ng! X)

Thank You Lord!!!

2009-11-17T20:44:00.004+08:00

Oh dear. Its been qiute some time since I last blogged! so many things that I want to write here but don't think I'll be able to.

Anw, I've been sleeping a lot lately. Really a lot. Just feel like sleeping all the time. Man..

So yeah. I've got quite a few things to do; do econs correction, read The Lost Symbol and The Tipping Point. I don't think I can finish all that soon. My Econs still waiting for me and I've not done a single thing.

Btw, PW is finally OVER!!! No more drafts and all. But miss the OP training though. It was really really fun. Love those time and the fun we had together. It was cool. HAHA.

I also watched 2012 TWICE! lol. crazy, isn't it? watched it once with my sisters on the 13th of november and watched it again today with nelson, liying, melissa, jun guang and walter. haha. today was kinda fun. you know why? cos today's lesson ended at 9 o'clock! Cool huh! hahaha! so fun! but miss my dearest physics lesson. Hope tomorrow gonna be even more fun.

Suplementary lessons are qutie ok but the bad thing about this whole suplementary lessons is that its all lecture and i really can't stand it. I much prefer tutorial and i think that is more effective too. cos teacher will be able to concentrate on a smaller group of students. well, just got to bear with it for the next 2 weeks.

Anw, I'm going back to indo on the 3rd of december. haha. Gonna meet my parents and sisters and brothers. and you know wads the best thing? We are gonna celebrate NEW YEAR 2010 as the whole family in my home sweet home! Its been sometimes that we celebrate togethere alright. cos usually always my sis always in spore, then my parents and brother and me in indo. So yeah, now finally everyone back to indo!! Oh! Just can't wait for it to come. hahaha. happy! XD

Anw, besides that I'm getting a new bag and guitar in indo too. hehe. think I've lots of things to do and buy too. lol.

Alright, gtg now.

I still got lots of things to do.
(1S14 video, read my books, plan something great, econs correction)

Alright then!

God bless you!!! :D

Thank You Lord! Saviour of all men!

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009 & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 in advance! (:

2009-11-01T14:37:00.004+08:00

Hey there!

I'm back again. :)

Hmmm. I'm not sure whether I'm suppose to write this entry in a sad or happy mood. Ah well, let me just write it here.

I've just ended my commendation day and from what our principal said, we are no longer JC1student. So Let's address ourselves as JC2 from now onwards.

It's a good thing that i'm able to get promoted. But I'm quite disappointed with my result though. I should have worked harder. Well no point regretting. I promise I'll work harder next year and be the next top scorer for physics. Haha.

Oh anw, I don't want to get seperated from my classmates! I don't want to change teachers too! X( I just want it to stay as it is now. I already love the class too much. They're a really great bunch of people. I could still remember the time we study together, chatting and laughing in benches, canteen and classroom, went for cycling, movie, class outing and chalet together. I miss those time a lot. Also during tutorials where Mr Ng, Mr Tan, Mrs Choy, Mr Chan, Mdm Robyn, Mdm Wong, Miss Neo taught the class and we make fun of each other and laugh in class. The stupid and weird things we did in class and other funny and good memories we had. Ahhhh! I really don't want to get seperated from you guys. X'/

I'll certainly miss you guys lots and lots. I thank you guys from being such a great and funny bunch of classmates for me. This is really the best class I've had so far in my life. I also wanna thank Li Ying who always been there for me whenever I need her and thanks for taking care of me. Thanks for always lending your ears for me too. Thank you. Also to Nelson, thanks a lot for giving good and mature advices. It's really fun talking to you. Thanks friend for being yourself and teaching me more things about life. Last but not least, to Melissa. Hey girl thanks so much for adding life and laughter in this group. It's a great pleasure to have you with us. Let's play more music after op! Haha. To the three of you, thanks a lot!

To all 1s14, thank you guys! Jun guang, thanks for making us laugh all the time. I know behind all those cheeky smile and your craziness, you are actually a real nice man. :) haha.

All in all, I love 1s14 too much.

Of course without the teachers, I won't be here today. So thank you all teachers who taught me, especially Mr Ng. Thanks for helping me all the time and thanks for being our guardian for the past 8 months. Thank you so much!

Oh man!

I'm scared next year will fly even faster than this year too. Haiz. I'm not sure whether I can cope well. I'll still try my best though. Anw, i've got 58 points for my overall. So the principal talked to us and also invited us if we want to go to japan on January. I would really love to but I don't wanna pay so much for the trip. I mean if it's $2500 for 5 days. It's quite costly. But well let's wait till I get selected first. Haha.

Btw, talking about my principal, I really think he's the best. Let me describe Mr Tan. Well, he is capable, charming, charismatic, nice, caring and cool! I respect him a lot. I really like the way he brings himself. Ah, I just like him a lot. I think Mr Tan and all the teachers in SRJC rock the school. Without them, school will be a real boring place. Thank you Mr Tan! Thank you teachers! :) Friends and schoolmates are also important of course. Haha.

You know wad? I just LOVE SRJC! It's great to be there. You'll never regret to go there. The school, the culture, the people. Love them all! Thanks everyone! X)

To SRJC,
Discere Servire!

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So tomorrow is my chinese a level. And yea I haven't even start studying. I really dun have the confidence that I can pass my Chinese. Haiz. I think I'll have to take Chinese again next year. It quite a sad thing to say.

Oh ya my band haven't do cip too. Going to plan with James after our op. And ya I'm going to watch a music concert with the band exco too! Haha.

Let's talk about op now!!! Omg I haven't start practising yet! Haiz. My ppt itself it's not done yet. Gonna do it soon later.

Oh ya this month is going to be quite a busy month. I have to plan quite a number of birthday party. Haha. There're 3 special birthday! After op then I'll start planning. Lol.

Now I'm still on the bus. Just now went to view a house at simei. Gonna ask my parents to consider buying a condo there. Lol.

I'm reaching home soon...

K then will talk to you guys again some other time. See ya!

God bless you! :)

2009-10-30T18:17:00.003+08:00

Waiting for Mdm Ong to come down now. I'm at concourse now still waiting for Mdm Ong....

Once she comes down. that's it for WR and we gonna start OP tomorrow.

Come on, HURRY UP Mdm Ong!!!!

OMG! Just can't wait any longer... X)

2009-10-30T03:49:00.001+08:00

A few more things and that's it for WR!

2009-10-27T21:07:00.001+08:00

God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in way we cannot see
He will make a way for me

God is great. He is the saviour of all human kinds and He will be my God forever and ever. His love for us is just endless and He will always make a way for me and all of you.

I've been thinking of how to survive these tough times of PW. But when I heard this song "God will make a way", I just knew that God will be there to help me and guide me through.

Praise You God. :)
The Saviour of All Men!
Amen.

2009-10-26T02:14:00.000+08:00

As The Deer

As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longeth after thee
You alone are my hearts desire
And I long to worship thee

You alone are my strength my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my hearts desire
And I long to worship thee

You're my friend and You are my brother,
Even though you are a king.
I love you more thank any other,
So much more than anything.

I want You more than gold or silver,
Only You can satisfy.
You alone are the real joy Giver,
And the apple of my eye.

2009-10-24T18:20:00.001+08:00

Ahh. This is such a complicated world. It's hard to write it here but nvm I'm still gonna write it anw.

It's absolutely impossible to be a truly good person. To be someone who ALWAYS do the good and Love everyone in the whole world. It's really impossible to simply hate no one, well, except if you are God. So yea, you just need someone to make you hate him/her and that's it, you are no longer a good person anymore.

As for me, I'm not a good person. I used to hate many people, some with good reasons and some just simply because I didn't like. So, I was thinking. Why didi I hate so many people? Is it because I'm being unreasonable? Or what?

Then I started to put myself in other people's shoes. Well, I have been doing that to some people since long time ago but not to these people who I didn't really like. What if I'm him/her? How would I feel if someone treated me like the way I did to them? Is it fair? Do they have their own reasons from doing those things? Would I want someone to treat me like that?

The answer is obviously a No.

Perhaps it's all my fault. I'm the one being unreasonable. Why do I need to waste so much time on this? I want to be a good person. I've always try to do good things. So now let me start afresh. I want to start a completely new day. I'm not gonna hate anyone from today onwards as i believe that when some people do something that I don't like, they must have a good reason for it. So let's don't be so unreasonable and I'm going to learn to understand people better. It is, of course, not an easy thing to do and it's going to take me sometime to be able to do all this. Nevertheless I'm still going to do it. At least I'm gonna try.

From today onwards, I hate no one. :)

Anyway, went for Nike Human Race 2009 today. It was cool. The feeling, the atmosphere, the people, the stage, etc, were totally awesome. It's so cool to see so many people running at the same time with same t-shirt! Hahaha. Well, everything was magnificent. Took quite a number of pictures with my classmates too! And again, they Rock! Hahaha. Love my class lots! XD

SRJC also won the school category champion! Wohoooo! Haha. it's kinda expected. Lol. Champion of Nike Human Race 2009! Cool huh. Great. My school rox!

After all that running and sweating, my classmates and I went for lunch at marina square. Finally found the claypot rice! Have been finding it all around spore and finally! Haha. It's really not bad. You all should try it. Walter ate the same thing too. Haha. It's really nice.

So after that, went back home, bathed and slept. Oh before sleeping I was watching angles & demonds. Haha. I just realised that it is quite a complicated show too. Lol. But it's still a real good show though. So now going to have dinner soon.

Anw my second sister regretted for not joining Nike human race. She thought I'm going to run all the 10 km then she was worried she has no friend to run with. In the end, I only ran about 2km plus then I walked all the way to the ending point. Haha. Nvm, she shall join next year! Yeah!

Btw, my brother going back to indo tomorrow. Good rite! I want too. I wanna play my piano and get a new guitar. Hehe. Of course I wanna meet my parents and my uncle too. Haha.

Alright then gtg now. See ya!

God bless you all! :D

2009-10-23T07:28:00.001+08:00

I really have nothing to say.

I seriously don't know who to blame. She? He? Or myself?

Who's at fault? Don't tell me it's nobody fault. Tell me!

I'm just sick of all this. Everything seems to go against me.

This is really the worst moment of my life in JC.

Mr Ng is true. We can't be depending so much on her. But the thing is we need help from teachers too. And it's impossible to go to other teacher now. It's all too late. Besides it takes time for someone to understand the whole project.

So what am I supposed to do now???

Just ignore everything and take it as if nothing happened? Wow.

For goodness sake, I can't even study Chinese now and a level is like in less than 2 weeks time.

Ah WADEVER!

2009-10-22T01:36:00.001+08:00

Hey guys!

I've just gotten back my promo results. They gave us back yesterday for checking and well more or less you should already know whether you are going to make it or not next year. So yup, surprisingly, I did slightly better than mid year. Lol. I thought it's going to be a disastrous but it turned out to be a little bit alright.

BUT...

It's seriously below my expectation. I knew that I can do better than what I have know. It's just that I've not work hard enough. I'm quite disappointed with some of the results too. Especially maths and physics. I did put an extra effort for maths as I started revision kinda early before the paper but in the end, I only managed to get a D. Actually I was quite fed up when I was doing the paper cos suddenly I just can't recall how to do them. Sigh.

Ok then for physics. There's two reasons for it. Firstly, it's because I didn't do my best for that paper and I did not do enough revision. Secondly, I wasn't concentrating for 45 minutes while doing the paper. I was like stoning for that 45 mins. My brain just stopped working. Too many things went through my mind. Perhaps I was too excited for my schedule after promo. Oh man... I regretted it a lot. Well next time i really shouldn't plan too much. Ah but well, it's over. I'm going to study physics like mad next year. I'll make sure I'll be one of the top physics student in SR. Haha. :)

You know wad? I simply love physics a lot!!! I just find it so so so cool! Hahahahaha. XD

Oh ok anw, I'm supposed to be in an angry mood. PW is such a....

Haiz. Nvm. I just can't wait for wr submission then I can....

Lol. I shouldn't say it here. Haha.

Today something crazy happened. It's really maddening. I've never done such a lowdown thing before in my whole life before! But because of her I've been the bad guy for the past few weeks. Arrrrgggghhhh! I just don't know what I should do or say bout her. I give up. She can do whatever she wants.

I DON'T CARE!

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Btw, if I didn't calculate wrongly, I got 56.75 points for my promo. It's really not good enough and I'm going to study even more harder and smarter next year. I promise!

So yea, gtg now. Still having school tml. Nites!!! (:

2009-10-19T22:06:00.003+08:00

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star

and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops,

Away above the chimney tops.

That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly.

Birds fly over the rainbow,

Why then - oh, why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,

Why, oh, why can't I?

PW - craziest subject ever!

2009-10-18T01:07:00.005+08:00

I'm back again people. Anw, I've been using my I touch to blog lately cos I simply too lazy to on my laptop. Oh well, it's much more convinient to use laptop of course but i think if I get used to using i touch to blog, it should be alright in no time.

Oh btw, I have been busy with my pw for the past one week. Well, everyone is. Gotta hand in WR this Wednesday too and I&R on Tuesday. I haven't start on my I&R yet. Haha. Today is my slack day. It's been quite sometime since I last do nothing for the whole day. Haha. Actually plan to run in the morning with my sis but everyone woke up late. So yea, we cancelled it. Tomorrow will be the run then. I'll also be doing my I&R an WR tomorrow.

Anw, all my promo results will be out on tuesday!! Oh man... Haha. Excited but scared too. I just know that my results are going to be a disappointment. Sigh. Better don't talk about it. I'll study next year k and I'll make sure I'll be the best among the best!

Oh ya! I also joined the orientation group leader. Besides, Nelson already said that we won't need to come back during december holidays. So it wouldn't be a problem to me. I hope it's gonna be fun. My band will also be having band festival on the 16th to 20th December. I'm still deciding whether to go for it or not because if I'm going, then I can't go back to indo, which is not going to happen. But I want to experience it too. Oh God, I just don't know what to do. Please guide me.

So yeah, plan for tomorrow will be running in the morning and pw all the way till it's done (yea, hopefully). Lol.

Alrigt then, I'm going to sleep soon. See ya and nights!

(crap. I'm really worried for my pw. My sis said it's terrible and she gave a D grade for it. She also said it's not going to reach an A. Ahhhh! PW is just too hard for me an because of it I sacrificed something which will only come once a lifetime! Arrrggghhhhh!!!)

2009-10-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

mood swing today!

I have no idea why.

Dying to ask Mr Ng something. I wanna talk to him...

2009-10-13T21:08:00.009+08:00

Hello everyone!!

I'm back now. Well actually wanna blog straight after chalet but I was too tired. Besides I blog at the class blog. It was kinda dead. So yea, chalet was totally AWESOME! It was cool! I simply love it a lot and I love my class to the max!!! XD omg, it was really really fun to spend time together with the class. We are now quite bonded too. Haha.

Well first day activity wasn't that much so it was kinda random. Lol. We first went to the chalet place and then met liying there with her aunt. Her aunt helped us to book the chalet place because she has the NTUC card. Thanks aunty! :) so yeah, then we walked all the way in to our room. It was quite far from the entrance gate. Once the room was opened, the guys went wild and jumped onto the bed. Man.. Kids are always kids. Lol. After that, we stayed in the room for some time and decided to go to e-hub to play pool. So went there and booked 2 tables. The girls didn't play at all except me. Don't understand why. I played with Nelson, Jia Xian and nithish. Me and Nelson won the game anw. But it took quite sometime for us to finish the whole game though. Hahaha. Played for an hour and they went to arcade while me, nelson and liying went to buy some finger food.

So yeah, while waiting for me to finish the food, the rest had finished playing in the arcade. nothing much to play, i guess. we then walked around and bought some drinks. went back to chalet and continue playing card games. POKER!!!!! hahha. got kinda addicted now. but no one playing with me. haha. after that went for dinner and bought movie tickets. It took us quite some time to decide what to watch. i was like trying hard to make them watch meatballs with me. hahaha. but it didn't work. so in the end they chose to watch Sorothy Row which i think a waste of money. I didn't even understand what was the story about. Its really LAME. but nevermind its worth the shouting and all. lol.

Went back to chalet again about 2 a.m. and we continue with POKER!!!! LOL. I think the highlight of the whole chalet was POKER all the way. HAHA! XP we played till morning around 5.30 a.m. should be around that time. Oh ya! we also drank Vodka! well not really the girls though. we only tried. the guys finished it all. they went drunk and started to laugh. nelson was laughing too. but without any reason. marcus' face was completely red too! he looked like he just saw... well, something like the one in sorothy row movie. hahahhahaa!

Then melissa and me slept on the floor and the guys slept on the bed. what has the world become to? lol. melissa couldn't get to sleep in the end. The floor was too hard for here and it's beyond cold down there. sorry melissa!

The hillarious thing was at 11.20 a.m. in the morning, Sylvester suddenly asked about the time. his voice was quite loud too. So I woke up and replied him that it was 11.20. I was shocked I thought something had happened and when I asked him why, you know what he said?

He said, "wahhh. Lucky! Still can watch spongebob!"

I was like.....................WAD????!!!!!............................

LOL. we were laughing like mad! but in the end, everyone woke up and start staring at the TV with spongebob and patrick inside the screen. OMG. hahaha. its so funny! XD

Second day! the guys went to bathe, then girls' turn. went for lunch and shop around e hub again. we also went to the rental place and asked about the overnight rent of bicycles. We headed back to chalet again and...POKER...again! See la! full of poker. haha. oh ya! Learnt to play taidi (is that how you spell it?) from sylvester. hehe. He's quite a good teacher. explanations were very clear and easy to understand. hahaha. Thanks Master! XP

Start bbq now! Oh before that we went to rent the bike. rented it for the whole night cos we thought of going for night cycling. anw, I also thought that mdm jess wong will be coming but later she said that she wasn't feeling well. so no choice. then when I called Mr Ng, his line was busy but when i looked up, I heard someone said "Hey Mr Ng!". So here he came. then the next thing he said was...

"Laurencia! You gave me the wrong room number!"

Then I was laughing so hard. HAHAHHAA!! I denied at first of course. hahahahha! I seriously didn't know about it. LOL. Then he showed me the msg that I sent to him and yea, its the wrong number. hahaha. :P sorry! after that, I chatted with him for quite some time before yue ying joined the conversation. He told me about the Physics Olympiade and asked me to concentrate on my WR. I was quite sad and disappointed at first but I know he meant well. but now, I really want to go for the olympiade! X( It sounds so exciting and fun. Oh man... I wanna go...

Haiz. So yeah, Mr Ng was like keep reminding me to not to give up my PW and chinese. haiz. but I think he really rocks! I just admire him a lot man. he's such a great and nice teacher. He always encourage people to do well. I mean he's just way to nice. oh and I also treat him like one of my friends too. ohhh dear, he's just good. I really hope he can be my teacher again next year. pleeeeaassseeeeee..... I want him to stay teaching me.

Anw Mr Ng, thanks a lot for coming! hope you enjoyed the chalet! (:

After that Mr Ng talked to us for a while and we went up to our room to chat. played a few random but fun games with Mr Ng and the rest. It was a very funny and memorable time. haha. after the games, took a few pictures and he has to go. so yea, he went home after that.

Next, we went for NIGHT CYCLING! wooohoooo!!! cool rite?

actually me, li ying and melissa wanna back up. we suddenly changed our mind cause we just realized that outside was quite dark. It was very dark actually. then quite scary too. but in the end we just go on with the plan. start cycling out of downtown east and on the way there....

Marcus injured his fingers. It was bleeding non-stop! everyone was kinda panic but the guys were so brotherly that night. everyone! sylvester, jia hua, jun guang, zhao xun, nelson. everyone of them. It was really obvious that they do care a lot for each other. I was really proud of my class at that very momment. very very very proud. well done guys! (:

So while waiting for help to come, suddenly 2 police cars passed by. first car stopped and asked what happened. I was stunt and scared. haha. I thought we were in a big troube but they were actually looking for a group of youngers (malay/chinese). Must be because there are some problem. So to keep ourselves safe, we moved to the bus stop where there were more lights and better lightning.

after that continue cycling till 4 in the morning. it was quite crazy. we cycled continuesly for almost 4 hours. around 2o+++ km i think. it was very very very dark and quiet man. super isolated. we reached changi beach sat there for sometime.talked with the girls and we cycled back.

Overall, night cycling was quite an expirience. real cool man.

btw, didn't sleep at all that night. was super tired in the morning. anw,was talking about movie of da vinci code and angles and demons. sylvester was so excited about it. hahhaa.

morning came and everyone went home straight. too tired to do anything. so everyone went home to rest.

all in all, the whole chalet was a success! I think everyone was contented and had a great time there! I'm really happy. My class rocks man! I Love you guys a lot!!!! XD

Thanks everyone for coming. I love you guys! X) Thanks for making it very memorable. It was really sweet.

Guess that's all for the chalet. I wanna sleep now. tomorrow still have to do my pw. see ya later! I love my pw group now. hehe. They had started working hard now. thanks guys. I hope we can do well. (:

but... I still want to go........Physics!!!!!!!!

2009-10-09T01:43:00.006+08:00

Hey guys!

Well, I'm going for chalet tomorrow! But i haven't pack my bag yet. Haha. : P I'll do it tomorrow morning alright. Lol. So anw, the teachers didn't really reply my msg. Blame it on me. I didn't actually ask them to confirm with me whether they are coming or not. I guess I'll just MSG them again tomorrow to confirm the room number and their attendance.

Oh ya! Actually I'm supposed to plan my cca CIP activity with James too. Oh man, i'm really quite busy now. I'll also need to do my pw like mad next week so that I can secure my A. I'm not gonna depend on her anymore. She is just so bias, An unreliable and ridiculous person. I'm not gonna care about her anymore. I'll just depend on myself.

Ah better don't talk about her already. She is just a spoiler. my blood already started to heated up..

Oh Jesus Christ... Pardon me for all that.

So anw, thanks to God that now we already bought a house. Haha. So we moving out soon I guess . But some renovation need to be done first. So earliest should be early next year. But it's alright. Haha. Thanks dad and mom too. They just rock! Love them lots! They worked real hard for us alright. And also for this house. I really dunno how am I going to repay them enough for all their sacrifices, loves and cares.

You know wad? I'm trully blessed for everything I have now. Everything. I'm contented with everything. I have the best family ever, great friends and teachers. Fun people around me. Great school and marvellous house at indo. Ah I just love this world. Thank to my dear one and only God for all this that I have. Nothing is possible wihout Him.

So yea, all in all, I simply love my life.

Oh well, I better get some sleep now. Gonna wake up early tomorrow. Good Nite and God bless you! :)

I-Touch

2009-10-08T09:20:00.001+08:00

Hey there!!!

OMG my I-Touch is really COOL!

I simply love it! Haha. I'm really happy. Well, at least there's something interesting I can explore during my break time. Lol.

A new guitar is on it's way too! Hahaha. Can't wait to go back to indo! Anw, I'm going out with my sec school friends later and going for chalet on friday! Hehe. Good huh.

Haha. Oh well, gtg now. Anw I'm using my I-touch now. Haha.

See ya and God bless you!!! :)

2009-10-02T21:07:00.002+08:00

Woohooo!!!

Exams gonna over soon and good things are coming too! X)

Oh just can't wait for the promo to get TOTALLY OVER.

Gosh! Let me list down the things that I'm gonna do after promo. haha.

well, here they are:

-Discuss about Chalet
-Chat & Laugh with my friends
-Dinner with friends and sis and brother
-Get an I-Touch
-Buy stuff for BBQ
-Pack stuff for chalet
-Go to school on friday with things for Chalet
-CHALET + Cycling (3days!!!)
-Have FUN!!!!! XD

OMG!! I'm gonna get another new guitar when I go back to indo too! My parents already promise me that. (: Oh Great! So many good things coming! hahahhaa! X) Love it man! Love all my friends and family!

Anw, I'm going to move house too. cool huh. hahaha.

but the sad thing is that, my parents are going back to indo tomorrow. :(

Haiz. gonna miss them lots man. but well, going back on december though. but still...

so yea, I will still be having another 2 more papers.

Then, I'm gonna enjoy myself like mad! hahahha!!

ok ok, I think I shall continue blogging next time. haha.

See ya! Good Nitez! XD

2009-09-10T15:51:00.003+08:00

I'm home early today!

simply because the weather is just too HOT! I can't stand it!

Oh man. This Gobal Warming thing is burning me!

That's why I chose to go home to enjoy the air-con. HAHA! XP

...

ah, anw, yesterday I had lots and lots of fun with nelson, li ying, Jun Guang, Melissa and Mr Ng! celebrated Nelson's birthday and gave him 17 suprises. haha. Oh well, everything went well I guess. Mr Ng joined the fun too and he played the guitar. haha! Damn cool! I'm so so so jealous. Nvm. I'm gonna learn it hard after promo kay. haha.

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday anw! and we going to prepare her a special meal. haha. :P

Well, gtg now. I wanna watch some video of black hole first. :P

see ya!

"ohhh 4th dimension, where are you?"

2009-09-06T06:06:00.003+08:00

OH God!

Look at the time now!

Firstly, I didn't wake up so early in the morning to blog.

I'm awake from last night till now (I didn't sleep at all T.T the whole night) because I have to edit my PW chapter 3 and do my Chapter 2.

I feel like dying now.

Oh man.

I really have to settle some things with my group members. I can't do this alone.
I will go crazy if this continue.

Ah, I shall stop here. I'm going to get some sleep now.
Still have to do Econs PROJECT! OMG!

You know wad? I simply hate group work.

Haiz. No use complaining though.

Very well then! Going to sleep now.

Good nite!

errrr...

I mean Good Morning!

ZZZZzzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzzzzzzZZZzzzzz

=.=

2009-08-31T19:15:00.006+08:00

First of all, Wishing all teachers in the World a

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!!

Had a really wonderful day today. ohh I just love school soooooooooo much!

WEll, I shall really write everything that happened today. every single little things!

So let me start alright. Last week I've been practising a piano piece for teachers' day celebration. It went well I guess and I just LOVE each and every moment when I played the piano. It's really an honour to be able to perform in front of the whole school and to play this simple tune on the piano for all the teachers in SR. Thanks nelson! (: I feel GREAT! I hope the teachers and all SRJCians enjoy our performance and also the rest of the celebration prepared by the student councilors.

Btw, I was kinda nervous in the morning. I was excited and happy too! oh the feeling is just indescribable.In the morning I also rehearse with daniel, who's my partner, once. oh ya, then Mr Kok, the pe teacher came to the hall. He is a real nice teacher. I greeted him and wished him a happy teachers' day. He smiled and even lifted up his hand for a hand shake. I was kinda surprise, but of course I shook hand with him straight away. Nice! (:

So yeah, after the whole performance and celebration, i met liying, chermel, elina and melissa. we went around the school to look for the teachers to pass them the teachers' day present that we have prepared for them. so, first was Mdm Jess Wong! gave her the presents and the card that I made. Then she wanted to take picture with us! so snap snap! :) Next, was MR NG! haha! (X he is still the best teacher in SR alright! haha. Chermel gave him the present and I also gave him the card that I made! and he smiled. (: oh and he told me, "nice play". omg. I was sooooooo happy! feel so great. Lol. then we talked to him for a while and suddenly I saw MDM ROBYN!!!

She CAME back and never tell me!! X( So I didn't prepare anything for her!!! i feel bad. well, I feel real happy to see her. miss her a lot man! then luckily chermel and the other girls reacted fast when jia xian told them that he saw mdm robyn. they quickly made a simple card for mdm robyn with a our class photo. Oh ya when we saw her, I suddenly somehow shouted "MDM ROBYYYYYYNNNNNN!!!!!!" LOL. she also tapped me and told me my play was nice. hahaha. another thing that made me happy! X) haha. talked, talked and talked to her. ahh. how I wish I could chat with her and mr ng longer.

then we continue to search more and more teachers...!

unfortunately, we couldn't find some of the teachers and you know what we did? we called mr ng! hahaha. we ask him to help us to put the present to the respective teachers' tables. Its not really nice to do that though. but we have no choice. So btw, I changed back to school polo t and met yi lian. Then I went to yi lian house first while waiting for shalini to reach the old ping yi bus stop. Yi lian gave me a tour around her house. haha. quite nice and comfy. no wonder she always dying to get back home ASAP! haha. then I met shalini and all of us took 222 to ping yi.

Met few teachers and was quite satisfied talking to all of them. ahh. it brought back all the good memories. but wasn't really satisfied because only able to talk to the teachers a very short while. haiz. I dunno why. It just feel awkward and the teachers didn't seem to have anything much to say. :[ I also called miss ang and mr leow. same thing happened.

I guess whatever happened few years ago just a memory that we can keep. perhaps nothing matters much. Its true. Expect the unexpected. I thought going back would be really fun but it didn't seem that fun.

Oh after all that, went to KFC with shalini and Tasneem. Shakeela joined us a little bit later. Chatted with them for quite some time and when shakeela arrived, she started to talk NON-stop! LOL. XP so we were listening to her stories and lame jokes till 5! lol.

Headed back home after that. Was really tired today. On the way back I was listening to music in the bus and a few thoughts crosses my mind. Started to think about teachers again. Oh dear, I just admired them a LOT! they are great bunch of people!

I also messaged almost all my teachers and wished them happy teachers day and they made my day by replying a simple thank you with a smiley face on it. :D

When I reached home, I took my guitar and brought it down to the swimming pool and play it while accompanying my brother swimming. It's really fun playing musics. I find a freat pleasure and joy in playing it. Just LOVE it!

OVERALL,

Today was a GREAT DAY!!!!

Had lots of fun with teachers and friends!

School ROCKS!
SRJC Teachers ROX!
Ping Yi Teachers ROX!

Thank you teachers for everything! Thanks so much!

Happy Teachers' Day and God Bless You all! (:

2009-08-25T21:23:00.004+08:00

I'm in JC!

Omg. yeah, I've just realize that I'm in JC now. Crazy, isnt it?

You know, sometimes I just wonder about all the small little and big things that are happening around me and things that happened to me. Like, what had happened, why did it happen, who's affected or cause it and many many many questions and thoughts. Some people may think that I'm thingking too much or I'm just being weird or whatsoever. but you know wad, its worth it to stop a while and ponder about all that.

As for me, currenty I'm just thinking why am I here; studying in JC, singapore and Living on earth. Just some random thoughts came to my mind these few days. I've been thinking hard about my life. the purpose why am I here in this planet earth living with other humans and other living things. Well, I may be nothing to the whole universe but for myself, I'm everything. so yeah, let me tell you. My purpose in life is to touch lifes and to make people happy. Such a simple, innocent, ignorant and yet demanding. I feel that living with others and makes them happy will make you happy.

I also simply love communicating with people. I love talking and sharing stories with others. You'll be able to see different perspectives of other people and its really fun! So I guess to achieve my purpose in life, I've choosen to dream as a teacher. I believe I can touch people's lifes and at the same time having fun discovering new things by being a teacher. Another way of showing others my feeling and thoughts is through music. I played the piano and some other instruments to express my feelings too. Thanks to my parents who introduced me to music and who have been great supporter and guardians of my life. without them, I'm nothing. they are everything to me. So yea, through music, I'm able to show others how I feel and also it gives me joy playing some tunes on the piano.

You might be wondering then why didn't I just be a music teacher? yup. that was my previous ambition. but as I grew up, I've changed my mind. I've found a new passion in science, Physics. I feel that through physics I discover more things about myself and the world. It excites me whenever I get to know why things are behaving this way and not the other way, etc. Its real fun and the feeling is awesome. Its just cool. Thus, I've decided to be a (physics) teacher and at the same time appreciating music in all ways.

I guess, my passion has driven me to choose this path. I'm in JC. A step that everyone has to take to get into university for further study which I need to go through in order to achieve my dream. Perhaps that's the reason why I'm here in JC.

JC -> University -> NIE -> Teaching

Yes. That's what I'm going to go through in the next few years. that's my plan.

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So, talking about the current life that I'm having now.

It is indeed stressful to be in JC because things are moving very rapidly. too fast. for me at least. I'm feeling the pressure now. things aren't going that smoothly anymore. For example, I've just gotten my test papers back and I failed maths, chem, chinese and my econs papers. Almost all the subjects except physics. but my physics marks has not been up to my expectation too. what happened? search me. Am I being too complacent? I dunno. I'm tired you see. I can't seem to win anyone. I feel so useless. A loser. Its frustrating. like what I said. Its not like in secondary anymore where you can get anything you want just by snapping your fingers.

I'm so helpless! I'm frustrated. Why am I so dumb? why? why? I don't know the answer. someone tell me please. I somehow started to dislike the JC lifestyle. I feel like a big loser. I can assure you, the feeling is maddening.

I just hope I can handle all this. Hopefully.

Oh ya, I just dont understand they way some people think. Maybe I'm too selfish and only believe in what i think is right. but sometimes, I'm amused by some people's behaviours. They can be real unreasonable at times. and I hate it when I can't do anything to change those undesirable acts. ah, who am I to change others? - yea, that's what people always say. but I can't stand it. what am I supposed to do then? just ignore them? Then doesn't that mean that I might as well live all alone by myself and ignore everything around me? Aren't human being suppose to help one another? Ironic. Indeed, a strange and extraordinary world we live in.

Anw, lessons that I've learnt so far in my life?
Sometimes you just have to be selfish and ignore other "unnecessary" things around you.

and many many many.

Oh well, the World is just too complicated for an ignorant girl like me.

Physics A Level SPA

2009-08-21T02:37:00.002+08:00

Physics SPA was great today. Ehh. yesterday?

Have lots of time to relax and had some spa treatment. that includes the massage too! (:

......

LOL. well, A level SPA is far from there all right. haha. I was laughing when I looked at my question paper. too excited I guess. lol. So yup! Overall was marvellous! I had lots of free time and finished the paper much earlier than I expected. I HOPE nothing will go wrong and hopefully I could secure the full marks to help me for my A level Physics too. Well, lets just hope for the best. (that's what my prev physics teacher always said) haha.

Thanks God for the help! (:

Ohhhh!! Look at the time now!
Better get some sleep now if not I'll be late for school tomorrow.
Ops. sorry. I mean today. LOLx! XP

See ya and God Bless all!

2009-08-12T21:52:00.004+08:00

"Why?"

Such a powerful word indeed.

Too many things running around my mind. I don't even know what to think first.

WHY???

2009-08-08T12:17:00.009+08:00

Yesterday was totally AWESOME!!!!

Thanksgiving Concert Rocks!!!

SRJC is a real cool College!

I seriously didn't regret to be in SRJC. I just love the school and the teachers and friends there!

Anw, Thanks Mr Tan and all the TEACHERS for the magnificent perfomance. I'm sure all the students enjoyed themselves to the max yesterday.

Well, let me tell you what happened. I went to school around 3 and had band practice with the band of course and then went down to the plaza to be ready for performance. we were playing for ndp. The performance wasn't a good one and Ms Ong was furious and we are in a really big trouble. she was really mad at us. sigh* There's nothing else we can do I guess. I hope they learn something from what they have done. btw, lets not talk about this. it will just spoil the mood of my whole post.

So yup. after the performance, I changed to my home clothes and then quickly ran to the hall as I didn't wanna miss a thing. and WOW. performance was INCREDIBLE. I laughed and screamed too much that I almost lost my voice. The funny thing was that I didn't sit my classmates as I came in late so I sat with Linda and Nurul and the three of us went crazy. LOL. We kept screaming and laughing like mad and cheered for all the teachers although we don't know who's performing in front. hahaha. *Madness everywhere* hahahahhaa!! XD

It was FUN!! OMG! I just love it. I bet only our school has this kind of school event. and I'm sure the teachers put a lot of effort in preparing this performance for us. thanks teachers! Mr Tan sang a few songs for us too! He's a very very very impressive principal. I really respect him a lot. He is the best principal I've ever met so far. Thanks Mr Tan!

Oh ya!!! Then I saw my teachers doing all those funny things during the performance! HAHAHA! I'm gonna do something on tuesdayyy... hahhaha. OH I hope there'll be no assembly during CT period. I wanna go to class and have some fun and chit-chatting with my CT and my friends. hehe. :P

On top of all the good performances, the school still celebrate Singapore's birthday and sang the national day song and also school song (my fav part). haha. You can see and hear how proud all the SRJCans of our dear school when we sang the school song.

Conclusion:

Thanks Giving Concert was CRAZY and SPECTACULAR!

After all the fun we had in school, it didn't end just like that. We had a class outing!!! and the great thing was that Mr Ng came along too! X) so yup. we gathered outside the hall near the track and then waited for each other to come and we called Mr Ng to ask him whether he want to follow us for dinner and he said YES! haha. Great! first time he's following us for a class outing. haha. then waited for him and took some pictures with the class. Not long after that he came out and we headed to kovan mrt and decided to go to dhoby gout. Anw, not everyone in the class followed us for dinner. well, its normal i guess? but i still hope we can have the whole class to come for class outing. just for once. after all its a class outing isn't it? nvm.

Along the way, we chatted with Mr Ng and the boys are just so funny. I think my class rocks too! both the class and the teachers. never regret to be in 1S14. :) My class is really fun! we are the fun-loving people! haha. oh and in MRT, others were looking at us and they must have thought that we were with our classmates only, including Mr Ng. haha. and we did some stupid things like doing some physics experiments there. lol.

Anw, when we reached Dhoby Gout we still don't know what should we have for dinner and it took us quite some time till we decide what to eat. and yet, we changed our mind again and in the end Mr Ng said go to Park Mall. we followed him and finally found a place to eat. had fun conversation and laughed a lot too. haha! Was really enjoyable to have dinner together with friends and teachers. :) I just love it!

Jun Guang was really high yesterday. he kept laughing and laughing and laughing. oh and he kept singing too! LOL.

Oh dear, I miss those times when we first met each other in feb too. everyone was so quiet but look at us now. arrgghhh!! I just can't describe it with words. It's too hard. The people I met in SRJC are real fun people!

I love my classmates!
I love SRJC!
I love all the teachers!

I simply enjoy school life a lot! That's why I wanna be teacher!!! X)

School ROCKS!

Thanks everyone for making my day! :)

But on top of everything, of course, God is the one that makes it possible to happen. Thank You God for letting me to have such great people in my life and letting me enjoy my every bit of life. Thank You soooooooo much!!! Love You God!!!!

God bless you all!

2009-07-21T21:18:00.005+08:00

Hiiiiiii......

First of all, HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE was GREAT!!! Love it!!! I wanna watch it again!!! XD

I simply Loooovvvvvvveeeeeeeeeee HARRY POTTER!

Anw, I'm quite settled with things now, i think. I mean for the my study. Maths and physics are quite ok so far. Chem and econs are not actually. I'm totally lost at Econs! haiz. and chem too.. well, I'll try to catch up again alright. will ask the vice president of the 22nd student council to teach me econs. haha! Well, CONGRATS Nelson!! (:

Oh ya, physics test was quite satisfying. though I dunno the result yet but I think it should be alright. I hope Mr Ng will give back the results tomorrow and I hope I will not be disappointed with it.

Btw, I still got lots of hw to do! I shouldn't be here blogging. lol.

Too bad, I have been busy with my guitar every night and neglected my hw and revisions and my mom and brother are coming tomorrow! X) gosh! I'm really HAPPY but I think I'll not be able to do my hw, let alone revisions. haiz.

My brother is going to study here in spore just like the four of us! (: so i think I'll be his "teacher" for the time being till his exam comes. Oh! And I'm going for band chalet on friday and on saturday, I'll be having "Zero to Hero" seminar! arrrgghhh!! that means that I can't accompany my mom! aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!! X(

Luckily she'll be here for around 1 week but I think its still not enough. haiz. how i wish I can just bring my whole house from indo and move it here to spore! that will be nice. hehe. oh crap.

Tomorrow I'm going to SATA straight once school ended. I have to go for health check-up and will be going with my eldest sis. ooohhhh. do you know why I have to go for this health check-up???

Let me tell you why.....

BECAUSE

MY PR GOT APPROVED!!!!!

GREAT!!! XD I'm really really happy!!! hahaha. Thank You God!!!! I love you!! I hope everything will go well till I get my blue card. haha. ^^

Well, that's all for today k. I've got to go now!
Take care and GBU! (:

2009-07-15T21:30:00.003+08:00

I know I'm not suppose to be here and blog but i think i really need to do this.

I've been thinking for the past one week. This question just won't go away from my head till I find a good answer to it. Well, the question is,"Am I good enough to be a Leader?"

Somehow, I feel that I'm not good enough to be the vp. I know that I'm new to this cca, but I'm sure I can learn and I need help and guidance and not people to distrust me and look down on me. Sometimes, I don't think they respect me at all. I simply don't understand why. tell me people.

Is it true that I'm not up to it? Give me a chance will you? I can't prove to you that I can lead if you are not giving me any chance.

I was a leader before. Just that it is in different field. So I'm still kinda new to this and I need time to adapt. So please give me some time.

but

I can give my word to you that I'm going to give my best and learn how to be a good leader here.

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Or is it true that I'm not good enough?
arrgggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

***By the way, I HATE people who look down on me. So don't ever do that.

2009-07-12T23:14:00.006+08:00

hey guys!

Back here to update my lovely blog. haha.

Anw, I know that I've promised to post pictures here for the past events but I'm kinda lazy and have no time to do it. So pardon me for that. At least I have those photos in my thumb drive now. so Its alright I guess. haha.

I've been slacking till now. :( I'm dead. haiz. I'm still stuck in this world of slacking....

well, I still haven't do finish my hw yet and I'm confused with my PHYSICS, MATHS and CHEM!!! argggghhh!! It's driving me mad. Maths doesn't seem like last time when I was in Secondary school. IT's hard now and there's so much thing to remember and all the chapters don't really link with each other and that's why I can easily forget what I've learned in the previous chapters. :( Chemistry MYE was a disaster. I don't know why i did so badly. well, the questions types were really different from the usual test, so I wasn't used to it and got a D for it. and when I looked at the paper again, I realised that I was careless and did quite a number of stupid mistakes. sigh. as for physics, I'm totally not satisfied with my result. really disappointed. and now I'm having some problem with the new topics. get quite confused sometimes cos I dun understand the reasons behind all the things that I'm learning now.

I told my friend that I can't just take things as they are. I've to know the rationale behind it and why does it happen in that way. I guess that's why I'm having problem with my maths and currently physics too. and that's also why I've been having problem with chem. Cos I feel that chem doesn't really make sense to me. haiz.

PHYSICS PHYSICS PHYSICS

I don't know why but I just LOVE it sooooooooo MUCH!

I guess because whatever I learn in physics explains about things around me? maybe.

I think I love physics because I'm able to understand it. haha.

Oh dear, I just love physics! X)

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btw this is my MYE results:

H2 Subjects:

Physics : A
Maths : B
Econs : S

H1 Subjects:

Chem : D
GP : S
Chinese : U

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Hmm. School has been quite fun so far. anw, didn't have any chinese lesson for the whole week and tomorrow is my CHINESE A LEVEL ORAL!!!! OMG! I dunno wad to say. arrghghhh. I think tomorrow will be the worst 15 minutes of my life in SRJC! gosh!

besides chinese... oh BAND! I'm the vice-pres for SRJC band now! hahaha. well, that's how i got my white polo t. lol. having farewell for the seniors soon and have to plan a few other things too. I think I'm gonna be busy soon. especially when the pw interview coming. ah. I h*** Pw!

last thing before I end. I hate childish people. I mean people who are childish in their thinking. really hate it. for goodness sake you are already in JC. please stop being so immature. I really hate it. please think before you do something. dun be so selfish. think for others too. I hate it when you do something just to seek people's attentions. Its pathetic.

Grow Up and STOP being so CHILDISH.

2009-07-06T13:23:00.009+08:00

I wanna have a BREAK.........................!

for sure, I'm not back to the study mode yet.

BAD NEWS. BAD NeWS.

Haiz. HAve to complete as much hw as possible today. if not I'm gonna be dead.

Well, before talking about all that things, I shall wrote something about the college day first before I forget. :P

So yeah!

SRJC 20th COLLEGE DAY ROCKS!!! XD

Kinda love it after all the tiring rehearsals though. hehe. Love the last part the most and of course the taking pictures part. hehe. though its really tiring, but I did enjoy doing all the ushering and stuff. I shall thank Mrs Neo for asking me to be one of the usher. gained some good experience there. :) So well, everything went quite smoothly I think. I hope all the prizes were given to the correct prize-winners too. lol.

So yeah, bought a new pair of shoes for the college day too. I LIKE it! :P My sisters helped me to buy cos I wasn't free that time. but its really nice. haha. quite happy with it. haha.

Anw, took quite a number of photos together with the four girls and Mrs Neo, Mdm Sis and of course Mr Ng! wahhhh sooo HAPPY!!! ^^

I promise I will post the pictures here once I get it from Chermel. hehe. Now I feel like buying one damn good camera so that I can take pictures everytime i want. but well, thanks to chermel for bringing her cam along on sat. I think I'm gonna love all the pictures we took! haha!

Oh ya! kinda regretted for not asking mr ng to take photo with me. but well, never mind. Hope there's still next time. haha.

Overall, just love it so much! The college day, ushering and photo-taking session! haha! Good Time & Good Experience with GREAT people! (:

OMG. Just can't wait to get the photo from Chermel and Nelson too. :P

alright alright. got to go now. Will post the pictures soon k! see ya and God Bless you! :)

2009-07-02T22:36:00.003+08:00

BACK!

HW like Mad.

Well, back to JC again....

tired. I wanna have some rest! I wanna SLEEP!

anw, results weren't that good. Its simply below my expectation.

I'm just too DISAPPOINTED.
VERY disappointed.
Especially for my Physics.
sigh.

Perhaps I'm taking it too easy and was being over-confident? Perhaps yea. Will try harder next exam/test and will give my best shot. I hope I can.

Btw, today had a farewell party for Mdm Robyn. She's leaving the school. kinda hate it that she has to leave now. She is such a really good and funny teacher. she makes learning very fun. Just simply love each and every lessons of hers. I've always looking forward for her lessons and surprisingly it is GP! yea, General Paper and yet its not boring but really interesting. you know what, two thumbs up for Mdm Robyn! she's real good and nice. Love her lots. Thank you so much Mdm Robyn. It's been a pleasure to have the chance to be taught by her. Gonna miss her lots and lots! and I wish her all the best in whatever she gonna do next. I hope she'll enjoy working out there. Good Luck Mdm Robyn and God bless you! (:

Today's farewell party went quite well I think. though we failed to give a BIG surprises to Mdm Robyn but I think overall was good. feel kinda happy that it went well. haha. and Mr Ng came to join us! XD he's so cute! hahaha. OMG. It's just hillarious and funny! Mr Ng is soooooooooooo funny!!! real adorable. haha. guess that's why I like him a lot and of course that's why he is one of my favourite teachers. haha! X)

Had such a great laughter and time with them after such a long time. Thank you Mdm Robyn, Mr Ng and 1S14! (:

Tomorrow will have to go for college day rehearsal. ^^

anw sonething happened but just too tired to talk about what happened. besides it's a waste of time too. Guess, life is just like that. It has been that way since man was created. HUMAN NATURE. That's what they always use as an excuse.

forget it. Dun wanna talk about it anymore. kinda sick of it? yea, I think I am.

OH ya! gonna use my white polo t tomorrow. haha. So excited. I think the white shirt is cool. :P

see ya then!
God Bless You! (:

friend? yea rite!

2009-06-28T02:36:00.008+08:00

I'm seriously VERY VERY VERY SURPRISE and in a little bit of shock.

I really didn't expect this. Well, I've just learn a real good lesson. Thanks for showing me my "friend".

You know wad, people just WON'T remember any good things about you. NEVER. Nothing will go into their head except all the bad things you've done.

I just don't know wad to say. I'm just too AMUSED. ya, perhaps that's the right word that I can use here. I simply don't understand. How could someone do that? someone who I respect and who I called my friend?

For goodness sake, I AM NOT JEALOUS!

I just can't believe YOU will do this. Its JUST weird you see. and you DID it actually.

hey, you know what, I'm looking down on you right now.

and I will never respect you anymore! forget all about the past. Maybe its over.

I'm angry!

Not because of you didn't do that but you didn't even remember me? How could you?

I thought you were a good friend.
to me at least.
BUT
I was wrong.
Absolutely wrong.

now I understand what it meant by
"Expect the unexpected"

Friend?
Somehow I just don't beleive in that anymore.

2009-06-28T00:29:00.003+08:00

This is what i have in my pencil case.

2009-06-27T02:52:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching a movie - UP "A TRIUMPH"

A really nice movie i believe. Funny and yet very touching too. It made me teared.

And there's some really good lessons that you can learn from that.

its just wow.

Two thumbs up!

2009-06-26T13:55:00.002+08:00

oh ya! did i tell you all?

I got HONOUR for my Piano Exam!!!!

Lalalalalalalalalaalalalalalalaaaaaa..............

Haha! so happy! XD

2009-06-25T18:42:00.003+08:00

Oh crap. my sis going out with their friends for dinner.

miserable me have to go for dinner on my own. =.=

2009-06-25T18:04:00.003+08:00

BACK FROM CAMP ASPIRE!!!!

ya. back since yesterday. I was SENT home because I have a sore throat.

The teacher said it might be H1N1. few others students who were sent home and me were laughing. Its just weird. LOL. H1N1???!!!

hahaha. i guess we are all alright and still able to continue the camp. but well, the teacher didn't allow that. so have no choice but to go back home.

I'm kinda frustrated. well because i came back here just for that camp and i was sent home after the first day! --''

Its really unexpected. the 7 of us were sent home just because of slight symptoms of flu. haiz.

well, but anw, first day of camp was kinda unexpected. we had lectures since morning till dinner. i really didn't expect that at all. such a long hours of lectures and so many quotes. but i guess although it wasn't that fun, I've learned somethings. I hope I can use it in future. of course I hope that I can be a better leader too.

and yea, kinda sad that I couldn't stay in the camp. It's really wasted. and i want my white shirt!!! >.< I've no idea who's holding on to it now. just hope i can get it. haha. just can't wait!

Oh btw, I'm very excited to come back to school too! but I haven't finish all my homework yet! I'm seriously not in the mood to do it and the worse thing is that I can't do it cos I don't understand. arrrggghhh! why must we have so much hw. and there's still PW! Oh dear, I really hate pw. it's not fun really. I guess the seniors were right, PW is going to KILL you!

another reason why am i so excited to come back is because i wanna get my result back! I wanna see how did i fair for my exam. this is really the best part after every exam/test you take.

And WHY on earth is the timetable not up yet in the ASPIRE????!!!!
I have been checking on it everyday! I'm excited to see the timetable... come on. someone please upload it there....

So yea, I have been stoning at home, and watching DVDs! haha. well, I'm just bored. and I've been busy with my guitar too. :P have been playing it everyday.

Anw, my room is in a mess! I haven't repack my luggage and camping stuff. haha. alright2, i'm gonna do it tonight okay. just hope can finish cleaning everything by tonight. haha. :P

Alright then going out soon to have dinner with my sis. see ya!
God bless you! (:

2009-06-22T16:42:00.001+08:00

ASPIRE CAMP

ASPIRE CAMP

ASPIRE CAMP!!!

Packing time....

2009-06-22T00:28:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder...

Is life really that horrible? Is life that pathetic? Is life that unfair?
I don't know.

I feel sorry for them. But who am i to say that?

Sometimes, i just got confused. There's just so many out there who i think don't deserve what they got after whatever they have done in their life.

When i ask "why?"
The answer is always "that's how life is"

But i can't do anything too. I'm not God. Haiz. I just know one thing, i promise with all my life that i will not let my parents or my family suffer. Especially my parents. I'll never ever ever let them suffer. Ever.

I just don't understand how could people treat their parents with no respect. Its just wrong.

Well, i'm back to spore now and back to school life again. And i have another new motivation now. I'll do my best in everything for my parents. I want them to feel proud of me. I will make them feel proud. I will not disappoint them. I promise.

My parents are my everything. I just love them too much. I thank God for giving me such great mother and father. Thank You so much!

2009-06-20T22:35:00.003+08:00

Going back to Singapore tomorrow..

haiz.

feeling weird? sad?

of course.

2009-06-11T01:06:00.006+08:00

Lagu Cinta Tuk Mama dan Papa

Apa yang kuberikan untuk mama

untuk papa tersayang

Tak ku miliki sesuatu berharga

tuk papa mama tercinta

Hanya ini kunyanyikan

Senandung dari hati tuk mama papa

Hanya sebuah lagu sederhana

Lagu cinta tuk mama papa

So delighted to know that we are going to come together again in our own home sweet home...

2009-06-06T01:26:00.002+08:00

I don't want to go back now

I knew this would happened..

I hate this feeling!

Why is life so full of troubles and confusions?

Why? Why? Why?

.
.
.

Can I stay here?

please?

Time. I beg you. Just stop for a while. too many things are happening. I can't handle all of them at the same time.

2009-06-04T20:09:00.004+08:00

I've just realized how much I missed my home

My Mom, My Dad

My Family

2009-06-02T16:50:00.005+08:00

hey there!

I'm back. I mean to blogging. LOL.

Anyway, I'm in indonesia now!! feel kinda weird having to come back here though. haha. funnuy isn't it? haiz. I dunno. I just feel something is not right.

And yea, I just had my piano exam yesterday. I was like totally in a daze when doing the test. It's really crazy. My mind just didn't focus on the exam. i made lots of mistakes and my scales was disastrous! and my knowledge on the song really suck. arrggghhh!! i regretted it. really. haiz. i should have practise more and i think i need to go for counseling. haha. nahh. just kidding. I bet nelson need it more than me. HAHA!! XP

So, piano exam is finally over but it wasn't really a good one. I guess, the only thing that I can do now is just to pray so that I can pass or get something better.

Oh anw, nelson still havent email me about the econs project and camp aspire. I can't blame him though. He must be busy with his pre-u sem. and liying still havent email me the chinese project and i still have econs and pw project!!! OMG!!! I am going craaazzzyyyy!!

I also stuck at my chem hw. haiz. just can't concentrate. my head totally switch off once I reached indo. now, I'm only concentrating on playing my guitar and getting things to bring back to spore. haha.

Oh ya!! smtg happened when i came back to indo. will tell you guys bout it next post k.

by the way, gotta go now. my mom's calling me. see ya later!!! (:

anw, I'm using my dad comp now. damn cool. HAHA!! :P

2009-05-28T00:47:00.002+08:00

I'm back again! Feel so good to be free from homework! haha. But I miss my tutorials though. especially Physics tutorial and a little bit of GP. :P

So yeah, I'm going back to indo in like 2 more days? I feel excited, scared, nervous and more! I dunno its just that I don't really feel like going back so soon. there's just too many things that I haven't settle here yet. Another reason may be because I'm trying to avoid my piano exam. I'm so nervous! It's my first time alright and I don't even know how is it gonna be like. I'm not prepared too. arggghhhh!!! it's driving me mad!

Anyway, Lots of things to do in indo too. After finishing my piano exam, I'm gonna have econs project and pw and physics and maths and chem homework and more and more and more...

I also need to get a new spect and gonna learn my guitar and piano. I think I'm going to concentrate on those two instruments first before I move on to another one. haha. Next going to be flute, clarinet, violin and harp! wow! as if i really got so much time. haha. maybe later after A level then I'll have time for all that. for now, let's just learn two first k. :)

Btw, I don't think I'll be enjoying my holiday "fully". Blame it on the school for not giving back the result now. They are keeping me in suspense! and I don't really like it. X$

Oh, come on. Just give the results can you? but well. rules are rules. They are meant to be followed. there's nothing I can do too, can I? so let's just wait till next term and prepared to get surprised by either your "WOW" result or your "*&^%$#" result. haha! XD

Of course I would want my "WOW" result okay. LOL.

Anw, Today physics lesson was great! SUPERB! really love it! Physics just ROCKS! haha!

I'm so excited for next term topics. They look super interesting and of course SUPER DUPER demanding too. haha. So peeps, let me remind you guys first. IT'S GONNA BE TOUGH! but no worries k. we've got great teachers to help us! :)

I've to concentrate on my piano exam now. so have to keep aside most of other things including physics. :( sadness. But After piano exam, I promise I'll get back to you again okay my dear physics! ^^

ALRIGHT, maybe this will be my last post before going back to indo.

So, wish me luck people for my piano exam and see you soon!!! XD

-God Bless You-

2009-05-28T00:44:00.001+08:00

PW is meant to kill students.

.NO kidding.

2009-05-26T19:55:00.003+08:00

Hey there!!!!

Oh God!! Thanks a lot! Thank You soooooooooo Much!!!! XD
I Love You!!!

I'm so happy today!! I really am! Tomorrow will even be better! Cos you know why? Besok aku ada lesson bareng (khusus) sama Mr Ng dan satu temen lagi buat Physics!! 3 Jam dan cuma bertiga loh!! HAHAHA!! Aduh aku tuh seneng nya bukan main!! dan dia juga bilang nilai ku buat physics juga lumayan bagus loh. hehe. Thank God for helping me all the way. Makanya aku juga lumayan sure buat smua exam because I know God is there to support me and guide me through. :) So thanks so much God! Love You!

Oh btw, PW has started. Lots of work coming in. I've got to be ready man. And Anw the school msg me last minute saying that there'll be econs lecture on friday and also briefing for college day on friday too and I'm involved! And I will have to rush back home to go back to indo!! arrrgghhh!! that means I won't be able to attend both lectures/meetings! So many things to do!! even during the holiday. haiz. There's just too many things! and I have like one..two..THREE weeks holiday! --''

But never mind. I hope I'll enjoy my hols. hehe. and my guitar will be following me back here too. so no worries. LOL. :P

alright will update again later. see ya!
God Bless you all! X)

2009-05-24T02:16:00.000+08:00

YAYNESS!

Finally exams are OVER!! XD see the sparkles in my eyes…! **

LOL. Well, not really over for me actually. My piano Exam is like coming real soon and I’ve not started my research on the composers of my exam piece and I suck at my sight reading. Sigh. I hope I won’t screw up the test. My parents are like paying quite much for that exam. Gosh!

I’m aiming for distinction too though. Haha. No worries too, cause I’m gonna practice piano from tomorrow onwards. All the best to myself! Haha.

On anyway, talking about exams, I’m aiming for 3 As and not sure about other subjects. My target point for mid year is 65-70 or more. Haha. You guys must be thinking that I’m mad. But yea, I really hope I can get those results. (:

Overall, papers for all subjects except Chinese were quite good. For Chinese, I can’t do anything much with it and the whole paper was real shitty. If I can get S, I would be more than happy. I’m serious. Last paper was Physics. It was GREAT! I thought it’s gonna be very very tough like what Mr. Ng said but the whole paper turned out to be quite good. ^^ I’m really happy about it and I’m aiming for 85% result and for Mr. Ng to write “well done” or “excellent” on my paper. Haha. Just hope I can get that too. XP Oh God, please help me… I’ve tried my best. X)

Oh dear...
I just can’t wait to get all my results back! I’m like soooooo EXCITED! X)

By the way, I LOVE MY SISTERS! This year birthday present is adidas watch! How COOL is that! I’m SO SO SO HAPPY!! Really love it. It’s as great as the Jacket that they bought for me last year! HAHA! They always get me what I want! They are very good, aren’t they? Thanks a lot sis! Love you guys! XD

Went out with Nelson, Liying and Stephanie last night to catch “ANGLES and DEMONS”. It was a good show. I was like damn into the movie while watching and I cried for the wrong guy. Yea, they cheat my feeling. But I think the author is a real good writer! The ending was totally UNEXPECTED! Do catch it if you are free. It’s worth it. (:

Actually at first we met at VIVO but the movie available was only at 9 plus, so in the end, we went to Dobhy Ghout to check and the only time slot available was at 8.30. Then we went to Cathay and check over there and got the tickets for 6.40! Haha! After the movie we went to City Hall and headed to ESPLANADE (is that how you spell?) and chatted there till 11 plus. Took lots of picture and most of them were not-so-good pictures. Steph did lots of funny poses and Nelson was just snapping photos here and there. LOL. Had lots of laughter and fun hanging out with them. Thanks guys! ^^

Anyway, I’m going back on the 29th of May. Then I’ll be back here on the 21st of June I think and going for CAMP ASPIRE! Hehe. The camp sound quite demanding and I’m kinda scared of it. But never mind.

I’m so excited to play my guitar and piano again!! I promise I’ll bring my guitar back here. I will! And I also hope I can bring my clarinet back to indo so that I can practice and improve on it. Hmm, will ask Miss Ong about it on Monday or Tuesday.

Lots of things to pack…. Sigh. I hate this part the most when going back or coming back to Singapore. I’m just too lazy for it. But no choice, right?

Alright then, till next time, bye! (:

Things that must be done by next week:
- Pack luggage
- Practice piano and practice piano
- Do PW
- Get Physics Lecture book and Notes from Mr. Ng
- Watch Da Vinci Code
- Do research on composers and memorise them!
- Go for dinner with my friend before going back

Life?

2009-05-10T01:29:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone!

I was actually suppose to blog yesterday but I was so tired that I fell asleep while talking to my friends. I'm not joking.

Unfortunately, I had very little sleep last week. Well, blame myself for not finishing my homework earlier and my PI too. Sigh. I only slept for about average of 2 to 3 hours every day. Except for Sunday and Thursday nights, I slept only for about 1 hour. I look like a zombie now... Haha. I didn't feel good okay. It's horrible. I can't even force my eyes to open during tutorials and almost got caught in maths lecture. LoL.

So yeah, though Friday didn't start really well for me, I really enjoyed my Physics and GP extra lessons after school. :) I had a great time talking to Mdm Robyn and Mr Ng. Ohh dear, teachers just ROX! X)

Let me start from yesterday morning ok.
The night before, I slept at 5 a.m. in the morning and woke up around 7. You know why? It's all because of my PI! yea, shucks. oh, on Thursday night, I was still in school till around 10.45 p.m. eitt.. its actually outside the school. cos by that time the security guard would have chased us out from the college. haha. so yea, chatted with nelson bout few things. we were sharing some stories and vent some frustrations and unhappiness that happened to us. It feels good to have someone to talk to. :)

Btw, I went to school and was in the my own world for the whole morning. After that, I had PE and did a retest for my napfa. I managed to pass all stations but all the grades were much lousier than my previous one. Maybe I shall just do the retest again next term. haiz.

Anyway I didn't talk to my classmates much as I wasn't in the mood to talk. I think nelson was in the bad mood too. Then we went to physics class and maths lecture. I tried to stay awake during the lecture but failed to do so. my eyes were open though. but my soul, my mind wasn't really there. I can't do anything much can I?

After that I went to Chinese class and took a test. I did my best and just hope that I can pass. Chinese is fun to learn but i just don't like when I have to learn it for the sake of scoring or passing. It's giving me pressure and I hate it. I just want to learn it.

Went for lunch and its GP time! Mdm Robyn is really good. Love her lots! :) she made us enjoy her lesson and learn at the same time. She really made my day! Laugh a lot in class too. haha. Oh ya, after lesson ended, nelson, li ying, jia xian and me chatted with her. Talked about few things in life with her and had some sharing. such a great time we had.

Then we walked down to the concourse area but couldn't find any seat so we sat at the benches outside LT 1. Met Mr Ng and talked to him. haha. I was so happy. I don't know why but I just love physics and him so much! LOL. XP

I really admire him. haha. he's such a nice and caring teacher and of course passionate about teaching too. I'm really inspired to be a teacher!!! I'm gonna change the students' lives! Teachers are just GREAT. So anyway, xin jie joined us too and we asked Mr Ng few questions and everyone was so tired and almost dead, except me. I was so high. Just feel so excited when it comes to physics and mr ng. haha.

Mr Ng knew that everyone was so dead and he gave us this lame joke. Then I was like...DOTS...
haha. Oh and I shot him back with 2 lame riddles but only succeeded in one. haha. So funny!! XD

Alright alright. Stop talking about teachers and physics k. so I went to shalini's house today and planned to study together. but in the end, we just talked to each other and watched TV. :P Didn't do anything much there. But I had good time together with shalini and sindhu. ^^

That's all for the two days.
Conclusion: slacked for the whole day X(

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Well i just feel like talking here about things that are happening around me these few days.

Sometimes, I just look at myself and things around me and I couldn't believe my eyes that I'm in JC now. It seems so weird to me, wearing my JC uniform, talking with my JC friends and teachers and studying all these subjects. Surprisingly, I had been doing these for the past 3 months and was still not aware of it. You can say that I'm not making sense here but you know, sometimes people just don't use their brains to think.

I asked myself, why am I here?
To study? I don't know. But the answer should be a yes, right? But I still don't know why.

Study. Learn. Apply. Love it.
Learning is much way better if you follow this equation. :)
Don't go to school for the sake of scoring or getting good grades. Don't copy your hw for the sake of making the teachers happy and get you away from punishment. trust me, it will not do you good. you might as well don't do your homework at all.

Go to school, study and learn. "Learn" is a very strong word. for me, I think to learn does not mean that you have to know everything in the book inside out, but rather, understanding them and know why are we learning it for. Understand and do not memorize. It's much more fun that way.

I also asked myself, what can I do to change the world?
I looked at people around me and I told myself, "hey, you are so blessed to be who you are and for everything that you have". But I kept complaining again and again. For example, I remembered there's this one boy who helped his dad to tend a stall in a food court. He cleaned the table and collected the used bowls and plates. He even pulled a pail full of used bowls to wash it. I don't know whether he's washing them or not but I saw him pulling it to the back of the food court. I'm also quite sure that he was still in primary school. I know it’s bad to say this but I do feel sorry for that boy. I mean, I didn't have to do that when I was small. I used to have maids to do all the things for me.

Then we learned about poverty in school. I looked at lecture notes and was amazed and shocked that HALF of the world population lived on average of US$2.50 a day! it is a very HUGE number of people living in poverty and you know how difficult it is to get out from that vicious cycle. I was like, God why is there so many problems in this world? Why is there so many people suffering? What can we do to help them? I can do anything much. I'm just ONE person here. To make changes to the world, each and every one of us has to take part in it. I can't change the world by myself. I feel sorry to these people but what can i do for them? I, myself sometimes feel that I'm so miserable here. Sigh.

And just now when I was in the bus, heading home from shalini's house, I saw a boy standing there with a grown man which I suspect to be his dad (though they don't look alike). The both of them just kept quite throughout the journey and when the boy started to move his hand, I just realized that they are using sign language to communicate with each other. I was really shocked at that point of time. I seriously didn't expect that at all. I just feel blessed to be who I am today. I know, I'm not some kind of superstar or someone who has achieved something great in life, but when you look at those people that are not so fortunate than us, then you know how grateful you should be for being who you are.

You might say that I'm just being crazy and too emotional on these things. Most of you might not have noticed all these small things that you see around you. but believe me, you should have. then you will learn how to appreciate life and know how precious it is.

Stop looking and dwell on your weaknesses. Look and appreciate your strengths and use it. You will then realize how good and unique you are.

Well, I just hope that the world will change and hopefully there'll be more "good" people in this world. And I'm sure God will do something about it too. Amen.

Let's change the world.

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HAPPY MOTHER's DAY to my dearest MOM!!! X)

Thanks a lot for the loves and cares that you gave me! I love you so much and you are the best mother in the world! You too dad! Love the both of you lots and lots! Thanks a lot for taking care of me. I'm very grateful to have the both of you as my parents. I just love my family so much! You guys are awesome! Once again thanks mom! Thanks dad! I love you all!!! XD

Thank You God for everything! :)

2009-05-08T04:29:00.002+08:00

oh great.. I only have ONE more hour to sleep before going to school! arrgggh!!!

anyways, I've just finish my PI and shockingly I only wrote less the 500 words!

Amazing?

I don't know whether is good or not but well, I shall just leave it to fate.

oh just wanna update bout the chem test that i had today. HORRIBLE! hate it! I just feel so stupid. the teacher already gave the clue and i didn't see it! arrggghh!!! blame it on the lecture tables!!! its their fault! lousy table!

Alright better go to sleep now. cya!

Running away?

2009-05-02T13:34:00.011+08:00

"Do we have the right to hate someone?"

I've been thinking to myself about that. I'm wondering. Well I guess its because I'm guilty about it. but again I keep asking myself. Do i hate someone because that person has done something wrong or is it because what they did just irritate me(although they have done the right thing)? Or is it because of jealousy? Well, perhaps that is really one part of it. But I believe that there are other reasons than that too, right?

I mean, I do feel bad after talking to others about the "bad" things that someone did and how they irritated people around them. But that's just one of the ways to somehow take revenge/express your feeling for not being happy to that person, right?

Besides, when you so-called "share" your bad experience with your friends, you will realise that you are actually over-reacting on certain things. Lets use the word "exaggerate". And in the worst scenario, we even said something -which most probably not the truth about that person/what happened/etc.- to convince others that "that someone" has done something really really really wrong or unforgivable and we are the victims here. But hey, look, aren't we accusing him/her for doing something that they didn't do or say? Doesn't that make us the bad person now?

It's wrong, isn't it?

Oh well, back to my question again,
So as human, do we have the right to hate another human being?

Yes? No?

Oh dear, its really confusing me now. I don't even know what I'm talking about.

I guess I'm just being very guilty for hating so many people for the past few days. I don't want it to happen but I'm a human too alright. I can't be like an angel all the time and tolerate all the stupid things that annoyed me. I seriously hate the feeling when I'm not happy with someone. But what else can i do except complaining? You tell me.

Life has not been quite a good one I guess. There's just too many things happening around me. Life its too competitive now. I don't want to lose to people but winning it's not something easy that I can have with just snipping my fingers away. Working hard doesn't seem to be enough too. sighed. Luck doesn't seem to be with me this year.

I know that I'm being nonsensical here but I'm still wondering why is life so hard now? It doesn't seem like last time anymore. It's getting beyond my control.

Oh dear, I just hate being stupid and useless. Who will anyway.

And yea, as you can see, my grades for my test were horrible. You don't even want to look at it. I'm serious. It's not like last time where you can aim your As and get it in no time. Now, it's different. You won't even dare to aim for an A grade. You wish. Tell you something, you will feel more than happy if you can just Pass your test! Not really a pass actually, its a SUB-PASS. Believe me, you'll be grateful enough for just passing your test.

Well, failing test is not something surprising anymore, I'm used to it now, I think. CRAZY, isn't it? I feel like giving myself a BIG slap on my face for a wake-up call.

I'm lost! Where is the real me? Where is laurencia who will work harder when she falls and takes pride in everything that she does? Someone who will always strive for the best in class and everything? Where are you?

I don't understand.

Am I setting too high expectation of myself?
Am I being unreasonable in setting my goal in life?
Am I wrong to believe that I can do great things in life?
Am I wrong to believe in myself that I can change the world for the better?

I have always thought that I'm capable of doing many things and is someone who can achieve a lot of things in life. But I don't think I am one now. Oh dear, don't tell me that all this long I've been wrong about myself. Have I chosen the wrong path way? I hope not.. because if I am, I'm in a really BIG trouble now.

I am afraid of falling. I'm afraid of failing. I'm afraid of letting people around me and myself down. I'm scared. What should I do now?

Gosh. I just feel like running away. Away. Far Far away from anyone and anything. Perhaps being alone is the best thing for now. away from problems and stuff.

2009-04-27T20:55:00.049+08:00

Hey there!

Today I'm going to blog lots and lots and lots of things!

and I also wanna thank all my dearest friends who wished me for my birthday! thanks a lot guys!

So yeah let me start with sunday first. :)

It was my birthday and my secondary school friends (shalini, bo nian, alvin, andre, tasneem, brigitte) and me went to eat at sakura @ downtown east! we actually planned to meet at 11 am but turned out everyone came later than that. haha. we only started eating around 12.45. LOL. but nevermind. Took only a while to have our lunch and we headed to Pasiris Park to celebrate my birthday. haha. Andre brought the cake there and OMG, by the time we reached pasiris park, the cake was not longer look like a cake. haha. andre its all your fault. haha. next time must put a sticker that said "HANDLE WITH CARE". HAHA! XP

So yeah they sang happy birthday song to me and i made my wish and cut the cake. the funny part was that we only had limited tissue! haha! and you know what we had no choice but to eat with our hands! back to the primitive time... haha. so funny! after that i only had a few bites of it and andre started to throw the cake to my FACE! and here we go.. CAKE FIGHT!!!!

haha. brigitte, tasneem and alvin were quite safe though. haha. only me, bo nian, shalini and andre who got cakes all over our faces and shirt! blamed andre for that too! haha. well yeah we had a great time throwing cake at each other and begging others not to aim at us. haha. Gosh! it was really fun!!! I was shouting like mad as they kept aiming at me! but of course i took my revenge too alright. haha.

So yeah after all the chocolate-ly cake fight, we stink! X'/

and my hair, shirt and face were full of chocolate cakes! andre wasn't any better than me though. haha. so yup, after that we went to the toilet and cleaned ourselves. another sad thing was that there's no toilet paper! haiz. so everyone still stink! haha.

Then we were actually thinking of watching movie but there wasn't anything interesting to watch. soooo we went bowling! and I just realized that i really suck at it. the ball kept going to the drain and my score was like 1/4 of my friends' score. T.T I seriously don't know how to play bowling. lol.

after that, everyone was really tired and I was very very sleepy too and yea we went home. besides andre had to go to church too. so we made our way back to pasiris and headed home. I was almost asleep in the bus and i think there was one time where i was talking to myself in my dream while talking to shalini. haha. thank God she didn't realize that. XP

But yeah I had a really great time with all of them. I really miss them a lot and somehow jealous of them as they are enjoying their lifes now. but it's ok I still love my JC life alright! haha.

Thanks Shalini, Andre, Bo Nian, Tasneem, Alvin and Brigitte for coming!!! :)

OH ya!! after that I went to KFC with my two sisters for dinner. LOL. we didn't take any picture though. Well this year I didn't really celebrate with my sisters. Its more to my friends. haha. but yeah thanks sis for accompanying me for dinner! lol. and thanks for the wishes k! X) Thank you ci elin, ci lian and beatrice! (:

--PHOTO--

Bobo and Me! haha! =P

Andre fighting with the Prawn! XD

Tasneem & Alvin :)

LOVE this PICTURE! X)

Blooowwwwww!!!!

MADNESS!! XD

MY FACE!! haha! X@

Group Picture! :)

Alright...

Lets talk about today.. God, I'm just too happy!! XD

haha. well actually in the morning I was really really tired. but my classmates and my civic tutors made my day! I really love my class and my teachers man! X) well so yeah Mr Ng brought his guitar and together with the class, they sang happy birthday song to me! I was quite surprised actually cos i thought that they forgot about it and besides my birthday was yesterday. little did i know that they still celebrating it. haha. and I really thankful for Mr Ng for playing the guitar for me. I am very very very very happy and grateful for that! Thanks Mr Ng! Thanks 1S14!! :)

And a special Thanks for Liang Kui too! It's very nice of you to bring your guitar all the way to school to play happy birthday song to me too! I really appreciate it a lot! I was really touched! Once again Thanks ya Liang Kui!! XD

Another surprising thing was that Nelson and Li ying brought present for me too! Thanks a lot guys!!! Oh my God.

I'm very very touched! thanks a lot guys! I didn't know that you all would buy a present for me. haha. and there was something else besides the present too... well I shall not say it here. haha! I just hope that there's only one copy of it or else.... I know who to look for.. hahaha!

I was thinking of treating them for dinner outside too but they didn't want. so yeah we went to crossroad cafe and eat there. LOL. didn't know that the two of you like the burger so much. haha!

I think this year birthday was very special and just different. I did had lots and lots of fun with all my friends and sisters and family! :)

Once again special thanks to everyone for making my day! Love you guys!

Thank God for everything! thanks for giving me such wonderful friends, family and birthday celebration! Thank You soooooooooo MUCH!!! X) Love You God! :)

God bless you all! :)

SPEECH DAY 2009!

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO ME!

2009-04-25T23:30:00.007+08:00

Hey there!

I've been waiting to blog since a few days ago. there's just too many things happening. good things to be exact. :)

so yeap, let me start now..

I kinda take JC life too easily. Well, not saying that I'm not working hard or something like that but its just that when I failed my test, I'm not very stress about it. I hate that seriously. I keep telling myself "WAKE UP!" but yeah it still doesn't work. :(

I kept dozing off in lectures and sometimes during tutorials too. haiz. What should I do then? I'm confused. Another one is that when I failed my tests, GP and Econs, I don't feel really bad about it. Sometimes I just feel that, I kinda expect it to happen. Besides, I just feel that that's my standard. I can't do more than that. arrgghhh! X(

What should I do?! I have to change!

I AM going to CHANGE!

I promise.

So yeah, I'm actually enjoying my last few minutes of my 16 youth days! haha. I'm gonna turn 17 in...25 minutes plus? yeah! Feeling oldddd.... HAHA.

Oh anyway! I went to Ping Yi yesterday. OMG, why am i so random. haha. let me continue on my trip to ping yi first k. :P

okkkkaaayyy,
I went to PYSS yesterday for Speech Day and the 25th anniversary of my school. I got the invitation to receive some awards. hehe. I actually I thought that I'm only getting one award which is "Best in Science" but turned out that I'm getting another award! It was unexpected alright. haha. So the other award is the PSG award. At first I have no idea about that at all but after gathering some informations from my juniors and teachers, I heard that its about being able to show extra cares and respect to others and some other good values. :)

and I'm proud to be one of the people who got that award. :)

Ohhhh.... the main point is that I'm so HAPPY because I met my teachers and friends!! XD

I miss them a lot man! OMG I'm soooo happy and excited when I saw them. haha. I went to school with Linda and when we entered the school, I feel kinda weird. I don't know why but I just have this weird feeling. The feeling that I'm not longer belong here. and we were laughing when we saw some ping yians in their uniform. lol. we can't imagine ourselves wearing that uniform AGAIN. haha! It's just funny! XP

Oh then I met Mrs. Chan, Mr Gabriel Wee, Mr Kumar, Mdm Rubiah, Mr Samuel Wee, Miss Pow, Mr Chua, Miss Nura and more teachers! I'm so glad to see them again.. Oh dearr, I just love my teachers! They rock! XD I talked to Mr Kumar buttt.... Only for a while! he said he gonna meet me again later when the whole event ended but he went home! arrrgghh!! I'm very disappointed. I really am. haiz. but when Tasneem called him, he said he's going to meet us some other time outside. its much more better. well that's what he said.

I had lots and lots of fun in school! just love it sooooo much! I promise I'll be back again! :) Took some pictures with friends and teachers too but not gonna post it now. I'm just too lazy to do that. so for those people who are waiting to grab those pictures, you all have to wait a while more
k. haha. be patience and I'm very sorry for the inconvenience . LOL.

Oh God, I've not done anything today. not "anything" actually but yeah nothing much. I did nothing much and my homeworks are pilling up! MYE is coming real soon and I'm not ready yet! haiz. time please go slower....

Today I just slack from morning till now.

My Excuse for that is... "today is my last day to enjoy my 16th youth day."

HAHA. such a lame excuse rite. lol. XP

So anw its 3 more minutes to my birhday! HAHA! so who gonna wish me first?!

Its my eldest sister! ci elin! hahha!!

Then my younger sister, beatrice and ci lian!

for messages is Nelson first! then Li Ying! Rahul and after that .... (more people)

THANKS a LOT for all the WISHES!! X)

So yeah I'm 17th now! XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

hahaha! I promise I'll be a better person! Gonna change for the better and achieve more things in life! I hope that I can change people's life for the better and of course this world too! :) that would be great! Another wish of mine is to make my parents proud and happy! I want everyone in this world to be happy! so keep smiling people! XD Oh and Good results for MYE and promo! haha. So yeah I hope that I will have a wonderful year ahead and I'm sure I'm gonna love every moment in my life! :)

I guess I should stop here now. I'm going to update more things asap ok! haha.
Good Night and God Bless You!!!!!

2009-04-17T22:44:00.003+08:00

First of all,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHALINI!!! XD

hope you will have a great year ahead! have fun in poly ok and I wish you all the best!

Anw, I'm really tired today! Well, I was helping for the springtime rhapsody (arts night) in my school. It was really tiring. me and few others have to stand for more than 2 hours and we had to be really alert just now or the whole event gonna suffer. but i think i learned new things by being the logistic. not saying that it was very fun to be one, but well, i gained something from it, at least. haha. Experience? yeah, that's what I've learned today. :)

Some of the students who are helping were from the guitar club. Aaron, Mustakim and Jonathan. Aaron and Mustakin are two funny and friendly guys. haha. and I was very inspired by the way they played the guitar. I fell in love with guitar just by looking at them playing it. I promise myself that I'm going to bring my guitar back here and learn how to play it well by the end of the year! I also heard from them that Mr Ng could even play better than them.

oh my... I think if he did play in front of me, I'll be falling in love with him. X)

Talking about him, let me tell you something..

PHYSICS ROCKS!!! My PHYSICS' TEACHER ROCKS!!!

omg, I just love it! Its so fun and exciting. although its really getting harder now, but its so interesting. the more difficult it gets, the more excited I'll be! ohh dear, its fun! really! I'm not joking! PHYSICS makes a difference in your Life! :) And I love my physics teacher a lot! he is such a nice teacher! He is such a great teacher. he looks soooo...when he...haha! he is just....GREAT! :)

Btw, talked to Qi Xian before going for band. I must thanked him for helping me in maths. I have to admit that his maths is good. haha. thanks ya! Oh ya! I found a new indo friend in school too! His name is Beni, a J2 student. another indonesians found in SRJC! haha.

but anw, I'll be having GP test tml! X(

I know you guys will be like, "huh?!" and i know tml is a saturday. but yea.. We'll have to go back to school to take the test. haiz. I dun think I'll make it. haiz.

Chem test turned out to be a good one. :) shall wait till the results is out. haha.

Alright, I think I'm going to stop here now. talk to you again soon!
bye! :)

2009-04-15T21:11:00.003+08:00

chem test tomorrow!!!!

haiz. I just reached home like 30 mins ago?

tired and I wanna sleep.. I wanna rest...

I don't want to study...

BUT

I can't!!

alright, alright,

completing GP, chem and little bit of physics.

NITEZ!

2009-04-13T22:34:00.001+08:00

OMG..

I'm sooooo tireddddd....

I wanna sleep now!! X(

but I haven't finished studying Econs!!

Having lecture test tomorrow!!

argggghhhh!!!

my eyes are cloooooosssiiiinngggg...

2009-04-12T22:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY EASTER!!! (:

God bless all of you!

Anw I have lots and lots of things to do today!!!
3 days of holiday don't seem enough for me.
Blame me for slacking yesterday too.
arrrgggghhh!!
Feel like biting someone! raaawwwrrr!!!

And I guess I won't be sleeping early tonight.
I want but I don't think I'll be able to. haiz.
I hope I wont look like zombie tomorrow. HAHA!

My bag is kinda heavy too!
Why do I have to bring sooooo many things to school?!
I don't mind carrying 2 files and 2 books for physics though. LOL.

Am I being bias?
Yeah. I think so.
I dont know why but I just love PHYSICS!!! XD

Btw my sister B3s is disturbing me now!!
I'm writing here and yet she keeps commenting on what I write!!! Crazy girl! hahaha!!

Can't wait for tomorrow too!
I'm so excited!
I want to find out about 3% =9'8 13i%7452y!!!

And yea I think I'm gonna stop here.
Still got lots of things to do.
see ya and good nitez!
Have a good rest and sweet dreams! (:

Favourite phrase of mine : "You know.. I don't know..."

Good Friday

2009-04-10T22:50:00.004+08:00

Hello!!

Happy Good Friday!!! (:

well thought its gonna end soon. but yeah never mind. haha. God has forgiven all our sins today as He has sacrificed His life for all mankind, for all our sins. So lets all thank God for everything that He has done for us! Praise the Lord! Haleluyah!

So today I went to City Harvest Church with my sis. (: Have lots of fun there and I really miss going to church. I find it really nice to be in the church. It's like you are really close to God and it feels good. really. God is Great. Jesus Christ, He is the King of all Kings. Once again, thanks God for everything! Thanks a lot for everything!

Anyway, I was kinda disappointed yesterday that I didn't get the chance to go back to my secondary school. however, I've learnt a lot of things in life that I can't learn in class yesterday. I think God has planned it for me and that's why i didn't get to go back to pyss.

So yeah. what happened is that I managed to try out the whole piece of March Celebration song yesterday. Though its still not that good yet, but at least I did went through the whole piece. after that, the "newbie" started to complain that we were really wasting our time there. we could actually just go home and practice ourselves. I feel the same way too. But well, there's nothing much i could say.

After that, I went to concourse to meet liying and I saw jia xian and walter too! talked to jia xian for a while and he left. after that sat together with walter and liying and saw Mr Ng coming out from the staff room. walter actually called him to ask questions. so in the end I also asked few questions too. haha. I feel quite bad though. Cos he looks really tired, even when he was answering walter's questions. But in the end after one question when I told him next time then he can continue, he was so excited that he asked me to ask him more questions. lol. He is so funny. haha. Anw I think he is a very dedicated teacher and a real nice one! I find it really cool that he can teach in JC at such a young age too! I admire him for that lots. I just love him and his lessons a lot!!! (:

So in the end, he didn't go for the J2s night lessons. instead, he spent his time explaining to me and walter the questions that I asked him. There were 2 ex-students of his too. I mean they came and talked about PW. They shared with us how scary PW was and how demanding and challenging it was too. overall it was good talking to the two of them.

but anyway lots of things happening that day and i don't think i'll be writing it here today.

so see ya! And God Bless You! :)

2009-04-07T21:22:00.004+08:00

argghhh!!!

PW is killing me!!

It WAS fun previously

but...

It doesn't seem fun anymore.

****

Oh dear.... someone just kill me if you want too.

I don't know what else I can do...

sigh.

2009-04-04T17:51:00.011+08:00

I'm tired. Not really physically but mentally. things are going beyond my control. I just do not know what else can I do to change things for the better. 'sigh'.

Work has started to pour in. somehow I feel that I just couldn't handle it. Well maybe it is true that I can't. I haven't given my best though. I'm still the old me. Someone who is very playful and doesn't know how to manage time properly. It's something that I still can't change. It's kinda hard you see.

Time has been passing real fast too! I can't even pace with it. JC's life is really hectic. things are just going too fast for me. I can't even have time to finish my hw, let alone revision. I do not mind sacrificing my tv-watching time. In fact, not only that I didn't even get the chance to on the tv, I sacrifice my sleeping time too! I only sleep around one or two plus everyday! but it seems that 24 hours is still not enough for me.

so am I stress now?

I guess I am, sometimes. not always though. Cos School can be really fun at times. Its just the work load. although it is actually manageable, I still can't seem to finish it. I think the problem lies in me. I'm the one who has not been giving my best. haiz. But well, I'll try again alright.

another week has gone. Exams are coming real soon and I'm not prepared at all. What should I do?! tell me!

I seriously feel like shouting at an open space. How I wish I could scream as loud as I can.

Anyway, my head felt like bursting yesterday! there's just too many things to do in one day! It's really killing me! and I just realised that being a PW rep is not as easy as other subject reps. Another thing that made me feel like exploding is physics! I simply don't understand the whole lecture! I was copying blindly from the board and that's all! I couldn't catch a thing from what Mr Ng said! I just hate to know that. my head kept asking me, "why? why? why?!!" arrghh! I'm gonna ask him on monday though. hope that I can clear up all my doubts.

I'm waiting for my lecture test result too though I know that I'm not going to be happy about it. but yeah, I just want to know how I faired.

I want to write a little bit more here but nevermind. I don't think I can. By the way, I think I'm going back to pyss next thursday. I really hope to go back. I miss my friends and teachers a lot.

Alright then. I think I'm ending my post here.
See ya and God bless you!

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I don't think I'm fit to be your friend. I don't think I'm good enough for you. I can't treat you in a good way and it makes me feel really bad. I just don't know how too. I've tried but I think it didn't work. I seriously don't think that I'm good enough for you. and you are right. I'm the bad one here. I just don't know how to appreciate things. Do forgive me for what I have done. The evil things that I did. Maybe you really should find other people who are better than me. Someone who is much much much more better than me.

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Dear God, I pray to you now. Please guide me. I'll be lost if You are not guiding me to the right path. Show me the way. The right way to the place which You've planned for me. And now I thank You for all the blessings and sorrows that You've given me. Thank You for everything. I know that whatever things that You planned for me is always the best thing that I could ever ask from You. So Thank You God and I love You.

2009-03-29T19:12:00.001+08:00

i'm tired. I really am. How i wish it was just a dream of mine. Please just let me shut down for a while. I need a break.

And you know what? I think i'm going to die tomorrow. I haven't start on my research yet and i don't think i'll be able to sleep later. I've not studied my gp yet and i'm stuck at my chinese and chem hw! Arrrggghhh! I didn't even do any maths hw!

OMG! Tests and test and homework and homework! They are really killing me!

2009-03-29T00:17:00.001+08:00

I hate all these!!!

2009-03-28T00:23:00.002+08:00

Again...

TONS of HW to be done

and...

3 LECTURE TESTS coming up!!!!

Tiring holiday! I don't wanna go back to school!!! X(

2009-03-21T21:15:00.008+08:00

Oh dear.. I'm seriously very very very tired.

PACKED ~~HOLIDAY!~~

well let me start talking from day 1 of holiday. Monday, we had nothing much except lectures of maths and chemistry. tiring still. because i slept at around 4 the night before. after lectures, nelson, li ying and me talked and talked and talked till 5. After that I went home and studied physics test. On the 2nd day, I had my phy test. It was horrible. I didn't even manage to finish it. haiz. I was actually quite excited before taking the test because I was so curious about their standard but yeah, i guess I was wrong to think that the test was going to be easy. It was hard and the standard was quite high. I've nothing much to say about it and I'm just waiting for the result and hoping that I can pass.

Anyway lets just skip monday and tuesday. It's so boring....

third, fourth and fith day of my "holiday" week:
I was having 3 days 2 night band camp on these three days. It was interesting, fun and quite boring. but i feel that overall was really great! I had fun with my group members and bbq was good too. well I was actually quite surprised on the first day of the camp as they put me as a group leader. I was kinda shocked but well I manage to lead the group, I think. hehe. we had lots of training and lucky me, I did not need to go for 5 to 7 hours of band practices every day of the camp as I'm not going for SYF. Really disspointed about not going for SYF. but i don't have a choice. haiz. but yeah so the camp was kinda boring because while the rest are practising, this group of people (including me) who has no "music background" had nothing to do. we were just staring at each other all the time. luckily we were told to go to kovan to buy breakfast for everyone. hehe. the funny thing was that once everyone reached kovan, they turned to starving wolves! haha!!! they were so hungry and everyone went seperate ways to buy food. It was like as if they have not been eating for days! haha. well i guess its all because of the lunch we had. lol. lunch was not really good.

but overall was really fun. my group members are superb! had lots of fun with them. especially during reflection time. haha. I've got few pictures on our last day of reflection. will show it to you guys. bbq was great though i din't get the chance to cook the food. hehe. but yea again, it was great! but also tiring. my back is aching because I had to sleep on the floor for 2 nights! haha.

btw, here are the pictures...

Group 1 and Me!

Stars!

We LOVE Band! (:

On friday, i went home around 6 plus. didn't do anything much. ate dinner and then slept. Today I woke up and then bathe and went to east coast park for "class outing" and I'm now sitting in front of my laptop and blogging. [YOU KNOW WHAT??!! I HAVE NOT DONE ANY OF MY HW!!] I'm prepared to die on my first day of school next week. Gonna get lots of scolding from teachers.

Anw, "class outing" was once again a failure. it's not a class outing. seriously very disappointed with those who didn't turn up today. nothing to say really. I guess we really should stop having class outing already. they don't even appreciate it at all. and thansk to those few of you who came today.

and this is one of the pic we took today...

That's all for today. Good Nights! (:

2009-03-21T20:46:00.005+08:00

Q: How do you differenciate between reality and dreams?

A: Hmm.. good question. To be honest, I've never think of this before but yea lets answer it. As uncle had mentioned earlier, he said that in real life, we can cry and so does in dream. So how do we differentiate it? Well, I believe that we would be able to differentiate it of course. Do you know why? because we can't stay dreaming for so long whereas in real life we can. besides, sometimes we won't be able to remember what happened in our dream. They are often very vague too. but in real life, we can feel, see, remember and it's just so different from dreaming. so i think there are lots of differences between dream and reality. Anyway, for your info, you are not dreaming now. you are reading my blog in real life. if you want to prove it, I can tell you how to do it. First, lift up your right hand and make sure that you lift it up to your face level. next, swing your hand from your right to your left in a speed of 2.5m/s. if you feel hurt, it shows that you are really in reality! HAHAHA! (:

By the way, this is the next question for this week.

Q: "Is life unfair?" and "Can everyone be equal?"

This is under the same topic, so i guess you guys can just answer them together. However I won't be writing the answer now because I don't think I have much time now. I need to blog some other things too. hehe. So answer it k! I'm very interested in your answers! :)

School Holiday? Not for me.

2009-03-14T20:39:00.006+08:00

hi guys! I'm back! (:

Let me tell you something.

PLEASE BEAR with me because I'm going to write a SUPER DUPER LONG post today!

You've got to understand me for that. As you know I've not been writing blog for quite some time. so yeah, there are just too many things to write.

Let me start now...

first of all, I called tasneem this morning and talked about few things with her. I really miss her, shalini, alvin, andre, brigitte and bo nian! I want to meet them so badly. but I don't have the time to meet them. sadness. I miss my secondary school a lot!!! I miss all my friends and teachers and also the good time that we had. I just miss everything.

Not so long ago, I chatted with Alvin and we were reminiscing about secondary school life. We talked about what we did in class and all the funny and good memories. How I wish we have one more last chance to spend time together with everyone and have fun! That would definitely be great!

As for Now, I feel that time flies really fast. Or perhaps TOO fast! Just to let you know that I've been in JC for 4 weeks! And every starting of the week which is on monday I'd always say, "Oh God, it's monday again". And every friday I'd say, "Thank God its Friday!" and every sunday I'd say, "Oh No! tomorrow its MONDAY!!"

and do you know that I think i said that consecutively? its like i said it everyday. Its like in one week there's only monday, friday and sunday! there's no other days at all. Weird! Everything just went too fast that I don't even know it!

School have been fun but very busy. Tutorials are one of the major problems that I have. I just can't finish it. especially maths! I'm so confused! I don't know why but since I came to JC, I feel so stupid. I feel like an idiot. Real idiot. Not really for physics but other subjects. I'm totally lost at Maths too! sigh.

I also reached home around 8 plus everyday and then I'll only start with my work around 10/11 plus and I'll sleep around 2/3 a.m.

Tired?
OF COURSE! but do I have a choice?

well, perhaps JC is going to be hectic and really tough. but no worries! I'll try my best to excel! Anyway I've gotten my locker. Practically nothing is inside. However is not empty too. hmm. yea It's not empty. There's still air inside the locker and the locker is inside the locker too right?! God, what am i saying. Well just ignore me.

Hmm. now Classmates. We are still having fun now. no much problem yet though there's a lot of misunderstanding between some of us. I just hope that we can solve this problem soon.

Anyway I've found a new group of friend! They are Nelson and Li ying! I had lots of fun with them! They have been very helpful and nice to me. Thanks a lot to the both of you! (: the world looks so much brighter now.. thanks!

Nelson and me have been discussing about some questions that you may have never think before too. It's fun and interesting. and I would really love to discuss it here. but perhaps not today. tomorrow instead? I have too many things to write today. sorry uncle.

I still love physics anw. I think it is the most interesting subject ever! Talking about physics, let's talk about my tutor. haha. am i allowed to write it in my blog? I suppose I could. LOL. my physics teacher is very funny and cute. HAHA! I kept laughing in his class. I dunno why but yea. He's just soooooo funny! haha. he is a really nice teacher and he is open too. Like him a lot! X)

All in all, school is still quite okay for now. Oh ya! another thing! next week is my "School Holiday"! yeaaaa "GREAT"! (in sarcastic way) do you know why is it so "great"? because....

Monday and Tuesday : Lectures and Test!
Wednesday to Friday : Band Overnight Camp
Saturday : Class outing

Packed Schedule huh. yeah. so is it a holiday for me? I don't think so.

Alright enough about school. lets talk about some other things.

Lets talk about life.. its life good so far? I guess so. and I'm now started to hate people who said that they hate their life and also who keep saying that life is so unfair. I mean how do you know that you are not better than any other people out there? How about people who sleep on the street? How about those people who don't have anything to eat that they have to eat rubbish just to stay alive? How about those people who've lost their family and no one to live with? Shouldn't we all be more grateful for what we have? I don't understand why some people are so stubborn to say that life "sucks"? It just doesn't make sense.

We should even be grateful that we are still alive, shouldn't we? so why? why? why? why some people hate their life? I don't understand! why can't these people believe that they are different from other people? that they are unique and special?

let me tell you something. I still remember that time when I saw a guy who couldn't hear and he communicate with his friend using sign language. I feel very sorry for him. But he made me think. what if I'm in the same situation as him? what would I do? Another time, I saw these two men who work as rubbish collecter. when they were collecting the rubbish, the smell was so strong that i have to cover my nose although i was sitting far away from where it was. It shocked me when I realised that they have to smell that everyday as it is their job to collect it. I seriously can't imagine myself to have to live with that kind of smell everyday. But again, look at them. Look what they do to keep alive.

So, aren't we blessed enough?

we are created by God to be different. we are destined to have different kind of life. each and everyone of us are different. so there's no need to be so negative about our lifes. mind our own. Don't always look at other people. Do look at yourself first. You are the one who live your life and not others. Just be grateful for what you are and what you have.

I do agree that it's good to be motivated and we do have to try to be better. but to excel and to be a better person, it doesn't come to you just because you want it. You HAVE to work for it. You have to have sacrifices done. So don't just sit there and keep saying that "I hate my life" , "life is so unfair". well do you know that you are actually the one who is making your life unfair? just to let you know, It's you who can decide what kind of life you want to live in. It's all about you. If you hate your life, the problem lies in you and not others. So don't blame God and those people around you.

Anyway have you ever heard someone asking you, "what will you do if you have only 6 months to live?" How would you answer that?

If you ask me, my answer would be, "I don't know. I'm just not prepared."

To you:

I'm wondering.

How do you define friends?
and
How do you define change?

Are you sure that you've changed?
I don't think you have.

I know you said that you will.
But have you ever tried it?
You didn't.
So don't blame me for what happened.

The problem lies in you.

and you know what?
Sometimes you won't understand.
Things are just meant to be like that.
So wake up.

2009-03-14T11:05:00.002+08:00

hello guys! :)

I'm back. Haha. I'm currently lying down on my bed and blogging with my phone. Lol.

So yea, i'm going to write a short post now. Perhaps going to write a longer one tonight. And i think i'm going out with monkey and kangaroo later. Still not sure where to go though.

Anyway real sorry to the both of them. I felt asleep last night and was not able to go online. Really sorry. Haiz.

People! I want to go popular.. XS

Alright then. See ya guys later. Bye!

*next week is not a holiday for me at all!

I'll soon become an OWL and need not sleep anymore..

2009-03-11T00:20:00.004+08:00

I want to SHOUT!!!!!

AAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

and...

I want to sleep....

2009-03-08T12:58:00.004+08:00

Have I done my best?
I don't think so.

But I seriously need a break..
Another 2 extra days perhaps?

I'm just tired.
I need more time.

Maybe if there's 48 hours a day, it would be much more better.

Is Life going to be this hard forever?

2009-03-05T21:59:00.004+08:00

I'm back.

Tired and exhausted.

Not to exaggerate but yeah, I think this is the kind of life that I'm going to go through for the rest of the 2 years. So I better get used to it and try to "LOVE" it. Or else I'm gonna suffer in one way or another. I have no other choice, do I?

WELL,

School has been quite 'fun' i guess. :/ My classmates and me are getting along kinda well except for some. hmm.. For workload, you don't have to ask rite? I mean its expected to have tons of hw everyday. I'm seriously not coping well for my maths, chem and econs. I'm really left behind. My friends have even finish most of their tutorial and look at ME! I can't even do it simply because I don't understand. I seriously have no idea what's going on in class! It's really pathetic, isn't it?

sighed.

Overall, I'm left behind for most of the lectures and tutorials.

Chinese and GP have been very fun and interesting. I somehow began to love it. :) My chinese teacher is a really nice lady and Mdm Robyn who teaches me GP is lovely! She's so adorable and we always have lots of fun in class! well I thought these two subjects are going to kill me straight when I step into their class but it turned out to be so FUN! It's great! :D

What I still hate the most is PE I think. We did lots of running here and there. but yeah, hope I'll get use to it soon. haha.

Chem is quite ok now. I'm quite proud of myself too that I actually manage to complete chem tutorial one. haha. crazy me. LOL.

Econs and phy are ok. but I don't really get about the demand and the curve "thingy". I have to read again and try to understand. Whereas for physics, nothing much to say. I just feel so stupid that I didn't realise that today's test had 7 questions in it and I only did 6 questions. How smart... I seriously had no idea that there's 7 questions. haha. but never mind. Better luck next time yea. :P

So tomorrow I'm having PE again. I also have to wake up in the morning to run with my friend. Excited? ermm.. Not really. Just hope we can play badminton tomorrow.

Tomorrow schedule : School till 12.30, project and band all the way to 6.30 p.m.

Anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANG KUI!!! X)

Alright see ya people! God Bless..

Oh anyway, I feel real bad after criticising so much about him. Oh dear, what am I suppose to do. I don't feel nice at all. I'm scared I've hurt him. X(

2009-03-01T15:49:00.002+08:00

"Our sweetest songs are those that tell of saddest thought."
-Percy Bysshe Shelley

2009-02-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'm tired.

2009-02-27T14:11:00.004+08:00

Why? Why? Why?!

What did i do to you?

Why must you treat me like this?
Have i done anything wrong?
Did i irritate you or wad?
What is it?!
Tell me!

Why do you hate me so much?
Is it wrong to ask you questions?
Can't you be more friendlier?
You treat me as if I'm nothing.
And this is not the way you treat others!
Why must you do this to me?

Tell me!
Tell me now!

I'm tired of all this you know.
Thought that it was just the paranoid me.
I tried to stay positive.
But look.
Its just a fact that i tried to avoid.

I've seen enough.

More than enough.

God,
When will all of these end?

Dear God,
Help me.

Everything is just changing too fast.

2009-02-25T02:22:00.003+08:00

Good Morning everyone. :)

Ya. It's already 2 a.m. in the morning. haha. I don't know why but I don't feel like sleeping now. sigh. and I still have my maths tutorial and PW. :/

Hmm today was fun! eh sorry. I mean yesterday? oh wadever it is, I just love it. :)

You know why? well let me tell you now...

Yesterday was Zhao Xun birthday and we kinda celebrate it or something like that. It was really fun! we had it during CT period. See I told you that we gonna love CT time! It's the best! haha. So yeah, we made a birthday card and bought cupcakes for him. And the best one is that Mr Ng brought his guitar to the class and he played a happy birthday song while the rest sang for Zhao Xun. and That was really nice of Mr Ng! :) Anw I think he played in G. I mean for the happy birthday song. And I MISS my guitar too!!! It's so stupid of me to leave it in indo. It's actually because I brought lots of things from indo so I could't really bring my guitar along! >.< So now I have to wait till June maybe. then I can bring it to singapore. haiz. I just can't wait to play it!

Btw, I'm so sorry about my previous post. Well, especially for Mr Ng. I'm really sorry. but seriously no offence. It's just my opinion. So yeah don't take it to your heart alright. (: And I did realise that Mr Ng has actually slowed down today and I really appreciate it. thanks! haha. :D

Oh ya, back to the music again. I'm so excited for the band practice. I just can't wait to learn how to play the flute! I'm actually thinking of asking my mom to buy me a flute too if I'm interested in it. hehe. I'm also thinking of making one of the room in my house to be a music room. I'll have to ask my dad and my mom for that first of course. Maybe a few more years later? wait till I know how to play these instruments. hehe.

These are the instruments that I would like to put in my music room:
-piano
-guitar
-keyboard
-violin [my sister's. yea, she knows how to play the violin. :)]
-Flute (coming soon)
-Harp (coming soon)
-Drum set (If my brother willing to learn it)

and perhaps some chinese's instruments too? like,
-Er hu (it's that how you spell it? I've no idea.)
-Gu Zheng

LOL. I think it would be really nice to have all that. haha. But not so soon of course. I'll try to master them first then i can ask for all this. I think it's really gonna be cool! haha. Oh anw, I've got something to show you. it's the piano piece that I'm going to have for my exam. its kinda short though. haha. but yeah, maybe you can just take a look at it. I've got some others too in youtube. Here it is! Enjoy!

Alright then I've got to go now! See ya and have a nice day! :)

"Without music, life would be a mistake."